#hundreddaysofproductivity

Day 22/100

I took the first (out of four) webinar sessions I signed up for. lt’s called a beginner’s guide to research. It was a really informative and engaging. Enjoyed it alot and made notes alongside. I hope this actually pushes me to get started with my own medical research. I have been trying to brainstorm ideas for so long now.

One really good thing the speaker said was that we need to find our niche, find an area that we’re okay with reading tonnes of literature on; then observe and find a gap in the knowledge, to find the hypothesis and get started.

There was alot of good info on accessing the relevant literature via search engines and databases, and narrowing down the available results.

I have been trying to meditate / get into the habit of daily meditation like a monk. But idk why it’s getting a bit difficult right now. I’ve meditated twice only in the past 22 days. For 15 min each. I’m hoping to get a quick session in before going to bed tonight.

Day 27/100

Stuck on embryology for the longest time. First read the textbook, then realised I couldn’t repeat it to myself, watched a couple of youtube videos on it and now annotating a short high-yield book which doesn’t have enough space. So kinda feeling anxious but it’s okay.

Also putting it out there if anyone can relate: warning:has description of my anxiety

This pandemic has been really hard on my mental health. I did seek help from a therapist, but now I just can’t face the anxiety of taking another session. I wish the sessions were not on videocall. I know it’s not good but I may have ignored her messages and not attend the second session. Regretting it now. Just as night falls, I feel a lump come up in my throat. Constricting it. I feel like there’s a boulder on my chest. My body gets really weak and my soles burn. I can’t focus on anything and just want to cry my heart out. Tried that too , didn’t work. I’m all okay in the morning, in daylight. My anxiety then triggers some other actions and old haunting thoughts , werid scenarios and I just get caught in a spiral that keeps on constricting. This happens. And at other times I am completely fine, super productive, focused and euphoric maybe. The chubby bubbly me, smelling of sunshine.

100 Days of Productivity

(yet again)

SHIFTING YOUR MINDSET TO ACHIEVE LONGTERM GOALS

On June 01 2020 I started the challenge; after trying and failing the first time when I did it in September 2019. At that time I wanted to do it. Right now, I ‘need’ to do it.

This time around I have changed my mindset around the concept of productivity:

* The actual goal is to have no zero days. Just 15 min of pure productivity is enough to call it Non-Zero!

* But since 100 days is like around 1/3 of the (academic) year, it’s a pretty long time. So I have given myself, for the sake of my mental health, some appointed zero days during this period.

* The zero days with be compensated for by pushing a bit harder the next day.

* This is not a challenge where I win or lose. I win at the end no matter what. This is more of a productive lifestyle shift and coming to terms with the new normal amidst the pandemic. ‘Challenging’ myself only makes me more accountable at the end of the day.

* “It takes 21 days to build a habit& 90 days to build a lifestyle” 21/90 Rule.

* I am tracking a bunch of habits. In the first week less than half of them were ticked. The goal is to have them all ticked by the last week.

* Productivity for me= incorporating half or more of the habits in my daily routine.

* “Self control is empathy with your future self” .