#hums

i need more frienda so i can complain about my roommate in a bitchy bitter young adult way while also still knowing for a fact no ones making yp ideas about them in their head. i call my roommate ableist and get mad at them for shit but its also like. my roommate genuinely is not a bad person! they are one of the few people i do genuinely really like in this world and i hate that because im a chronic abuse survivor and all my other mental issues i often feel like i cant complain about thinga without accidently implying abuse. and its partially my fault too, i use very strong absolutist language when i complain. i just wish i had like. a mom to complain to or my sisters again. i have rage problems and if i dont verbally vent about things i usually end up hurting myself to self sooth, but i also have to be so careful with how i verbalize things and to who because i have had a lot of times in the past where ill complain ab someone and the other person will immediately assume THE WORST EVER of the other. i hate it!