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Thank you @hardrockfmsby atas sambutan meriahnya. Jangan kapok ya sama kita 🙌 #communitysurprise #hrfm (at 89.7 HardRockFM Surabaya)

And because we don’t really have an outlet for it, we internalise and let it stagnate until we start to loathe ourselves for not being “normal”, just like every one told us we weren’t all along. 

Fine. Prove to me that I’m wrong. Tell me how you can know you’re a woman when you have only ever seen what it’s like from a skewed and often misogynistic o u t s i d e perspective. Go on, tell me. How do you know that you are a woman? For that matter, what makes you think you can tell me I’m not a woman? I am twenty. I am a woman. An adult human female. I have literally all the qualifiers for womanhood. What qualifiers do you have aside from stereotypes and feelings? 

Dengan sangat bangga dia bilang sama gue waktu itu, "Gue dah pake Flazz dooong" Tapi yang terjadi hari ini adalah, jam 16:48 sore tadi, Pandji called me, and asked me a thing, which I considered as a one liner that really made my day. Kalo lo gak ngerti, atau gak tersenyum/tertawa, dan kenapa gue anggep ini penting, ya maap ya. He asked: "Ndir, cara ngisi BCA Flazz gimana si?" a mili second later, I said to him, this one goes in my blog.

Hari itu, Senin, 22 Desember 2008. Jam 4.15 gue berangkat adari rumah menuju Sarinah untuk siaran perdana di Hardrock FM Jakarta. Maksud gue siaran, adalah benar-venar mengeluarkan suara dab memainkan lagu (kemarin-sudah sempat mixing, tapi belom ngomong). Siarannya sih cuma sejam. 5 cut plus opening dan closing. I survived my first day.Still a bit rough around the edges, but I'm fine. Kenapa gue merasa harus menandai hari ini dengan postingan? Selain karena ini siaran perdana? Alasan yang lebih penting adalah gue mau mengucapkan terima kasih. Kepada kelima orang yang berhasil dipastikan mendengarkan gue siaran perdana dipagi buta, entah itu sengaja atau TIDAK sengaja. Kelima 'pahlawan' gue itu adalah; Ella Mulvi, Snydez, Heriyadi, Nuning, dan Mario Patrick. Terima kasih. Kalo ada yang mendengarkan gue selain nama diatas, berarti kalian menjadi 'pahlawan tanpa tanda jasa' buat gue. Ahh jadi sentimentil. Call me "berlebihan", tapi gue memang sangat berterimakasih.

Today, is December 1st 2008. I will keep this date in my life timeline. Lets just say, for now, that I am in for another 3 months. That means 3 reviews, a review every month. Those reviews will eventually, change my life. Better or worse. Alhamdulillah. This proofed, the almighty, He doesn’t hate me. What happened today? I will tell you 3 months from now. Too much drama I know, but then again.. Today, December 1st 2008, is one of those good days. (don’t get to cocky, some days are better than others, vice versa)

Today was the final test for Hard Rock FM announcer trainee. I thought I was prepared (with 6 topics to read), and forgetting to prepare the opening and closure. I was 15 minutes to prepare the rundown, and got distracted by the operator, who was changing this and that.  So I put the songs, topics, adlibs, and spot in order. The reviewers came in, both that I know. Put the headphones on, and start mixing. Then things went falling apart. First the recording tape was not recording anything, and the headphones was not cueing well. I would not use that as a reason, but then I forgot to use my proper on-air voice.  So there you go. A chance that hundreds people have always wanted, I blew it in 60 minutes. At least I did not forget to say Bismillah and Alhamdulillah. Well, I just hope that I … beautifully blew it.