#hpny2015

It’s not the new year yet for me, but I won’t be here when it is. I just wanted to say that… well I’m not sure. I just wanted to say thank you, to everyone. To those who hate me, and those who don’t. For those who hate me, thank you because you taught me that I shouldn’t care, and for the longest time I did. I’m not here to say any of that ‘New Year, New Me’ bullshit, because it’s bullshit. But at the same time, I personally will try my best to become a better person, not for anyone. But for me, for myself, because I don’t like the person that I am at times, and I feel like it’s time to change that. 2014 wasn’t a bad year, but it wasn’t a good year either. Lots of shit happened. But with lots of shit comes lots of stories to tell and many things learned. But in a way it was a good year, even with the shit, I kinda found myself. I learned things about myself that I didn’t know. Things as little as the fact that I have a very diverse preference in music, and the fact that I didn’t have as many friends as I thought. But now, I’m so OK with it. I’m happy with the fact that I have less friends then I thought and that the bullshit lies I was telling myself wasn’t even true. I don’t really think that there is a gist to this, but I guess it’s the fact that in 2015, it’s going to be different. And for once in my life I actually mean it.