Aug 3, 2025
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#ok im sorry i know this is the only thing i ever make original posts about#but it is wild!!!!#how like#even when im not spiralling about it#its still#like theres no overreaction!#i really am that alone#and i really am that afraid#i really do never leave my house#i really do believe that all the friends i make r in some way temporary#like#even if i KNOW its not true#even if i KNOW my friends r gonna be here for forever#theres a part of me thats been abandoned or kicked out or ghosted by so many people that im like#i genuinley dont believe making new friends is worth it#at least not irl#ive managed to keep all my online friendships for good so far#but every single friend ive ever had irl has gone#vanished#both intentionally and unintentionally#and im like well whats even the point then!#why should i go out#why should i meet new people#like i know it wont last#im only twenty fucking one and ive already lost so many people#ive been told im unwanted so many times#how am i supposed to go outside and talk to strangers#or meet people after that#how can i ever live again after ive been told time and time again that my physical presences is not only unwated but hated
