#homophobiaiswrong

#hatefreezone #endracism #endwhitesupremacy #homophobiaiswrong #endhomophobia #lgbtqiarights #lgbtqiarightsarehumanrights

Okay so I am bisexual, and I have been for a while now. As far as I know my friends support my decision and appreciate me telling them such a sensitive topic. My parents however are not so happy about it. I have kept this in for a long time and it’s got to the point where I’m furious and I have even questioning why I even came out in the first place. I should start off by saying my dad, is in fact homophobic, I know it’s the 21st century but he doesn’t care. I tried to be a good daughter and talk to my mum in a bit more detail about it and how I started questioning my sexuality, and decided to come out. I was nearly in tears. Not because my mum was proud of me-because I was upstairs after I had ran up to my room because she was more bothered pointing at the TV, as 2 men were kissing. She said the words to me “look at those faggots, I bet Kiesha loves that show”. I had began to open up to her for the first time in so long. After that day I pretended it was all ok and decided to talk to a good friend about it (she was female). I eventually fell head over heels for this girl but then shook it away as I have been hurt emotionally too many times to even think about another relationship. I pushed a lot of people away from me for a long period of time. The other night (New Years eve) my mum was drunk, and everyone was saying “a drunken man’s words, are a sober man’s thoughts” so I thought this was the perfect opportunity to ask her what she thought about my sexuality when my dad wasn’t there. I brought it up in conversation she was sharing with a guy about him settling down and having kids etc. she continued to talk until I came into the room and sat down. She went quiet, looked at me then had the nerve to say “take my girly here for example. She’s had her fair share of relationships, they’ve all been with males but she thinks she’s bi”…every fucker in the room hears it and turns to look at me. Baring in mind there was about 20 people here and they’re all my old friend is haven’t seen in years, or my mums friends. I don’t let it get to me and the topic fades away. I get my mum alone and I say to her “when I was about 8, you said you didn’t care what I grew up to be, I could be a serial killer, I could be gay and you wouldn’t care-as long as I was happy…what happened to that?" And she answers with “it hurts me but yes, as long as you’re happy I don’t care really. I just want grandchildren”. So for the last few days, I have been questioning everything to do with my future. I felt the need to get this out, and hopefully it will make people more aware of homophobia and how it affects people.