#holyblackspear

Thank you!

The primary reason I’m not giving out details is because I think innocent people will be hurt. Yes, it was devastating to me that people treated me badly because of these lies, but imagine, just imagine how much pain the people who believed the lies are in. When they realize I was nothing but kind to them and they hurt me so badly.

I’m sometimes seen as unapproachable and unflappable because of my confidence in my work and my drive to improve not only my life, but the lives of everyone around me. I won’t say it’s an act; I am proud of my work, but it’s definitely a calculated move to support my mental health. I have too much anxiety and impostor syndrome to send out the query letters I need to get my novel published. Nevermind the other struggles in my life with my physical health.

As I alluded to in one of my rage posts, to the best of my knowledge, the lies were in the vein of “TK’s talking shit about you behind your back” with the “shit I was talking” directly tailored to that person’s deepest insecurities. It’s... Unfathomable. These people I cared for so deeply... My love for them was used to hurt, not only me, but them, as well. 

I would deleted the TK name entirely, to save everyone else from potential harm, but my short story about depression and recovery is under this name and it’s too good, too meaningful, too impactful to delete. (It’s called Impulse Purchase and you can read it here.)

The compromise I made with myself was quitting fandom activities, effectively separating myself from what friends remained after the fallout. It wasn’t all bad. My book reviews are fantastic and I still offer writing advice on my Patreon, but it’s still been a difficult transition.

I still hold out hope that maybe the people who were lied to will eventually apologize for turning on me in such a fashion and we can rebuild a friendship, but as yet, no one has reached out to me.

Anyway, here’s a picture of my cat.

Ah thank you!!

What do their respective families think of their relationship?

Ev’s father is completely okay with it. Taelhen’s whole thing is “As long as you both consent to one another and aren’t causing each other actual harm. Go for it.” Keeper Deshanna is really excited though.

The Chargers tease Bull about it mostly, but they’re happy for him.

Has your OC had a bad breakup or nasty ex? If so does this have any affect on their current relationship?

Call it a relationship and Ev will convince you otherwise. Technically, yes, Ev has one. This guy she was with when she was a lot younger (think 13 yo) kept pushing her boundaries and gaslit her and such like that. Minor versions of it, so not like mega bad but don’t get me wrong, it was bad (all abuse is). She ignored red flags because she blamed herself and trusted him. It wasn’t until he broke up with her they actually split. And it was because Ev wouldn’t let him break her boundaries. Later on, Ev refused to call it a real relationship at all, she calls it a bad experience and, “It’s like, utterly believing an apple is an orange and when you finally look back you realize how wrong you were and how it was indeed an orange. It wasn’t a relationship.”

I was tagged by @holyblackspear and @elveny a loooong time ago for this xD Thanks a lot! :D Might also be a good opportunity to introduce myself, because I think since the last time I posted something comparable I gained a bunch of followers!

Rules: Tag 10 followers you want to know better Nickname: Elven  Gender: [redacted]

Astrological sign: Cancer Height: 159 cm Sexuality: Hell if I knew! Hogwarts House: The only house the sorting hat quiz never put me in was Gryffindor. If I was allowed to choose myself I’d say Ravenclaw or Hufflepuff! Favourite animals: Oh so many... cats so much though, in any size shape and form! Also foxes, whales, snakes and lizards, dragons, reptiles in general really. Horses, too, and anything that has horns/antlers as well. Also bats, toucans, and coelacanths. Number of Blankets: Anywhere between 1 and 3, depending on the season. Where I’m from: The void. More specifically a mythical forest somewhere in Germany. Dream Trip: Oh boy. I’d really love to go on a trip through all of London’s museums. My mind was blown when I learned that they have no entry fees. I’d also love to go to Iceland - once during summer, once during winter - and I think since my childhood I’ve dreamed about going to Japan!

When I created this account: I’d have to check, but I think in late 2013. Why I created this account: Because I wanted to see all the beautiful fanart posted here and hoard it on my blog.

:D Thanks so much for asking!!!

1. Which should be saved – a bus full of innocent lives or a loved one?

“How dare you come at me with questions like that, I’m supposed to be a good example for the people! Then again, I guess, I’m not really anyway.

I have to be honest and I’d absolutely save the loved one - assuming “bus full of innocent lives” means it’s a bus full of innocent strangers. I’m not saying everyone else should act like that, too, but I think if I was in the situation that’s what I would do.”   

10. If a lot of people, possibly innocent people, have to die in order to make a real change, is it worth it? Can you live with their deaths even if it helps people in the present?

“What is it with the death questions this time around?! The people on this Internet seem really dark...

I mean, I think there’s enough evidence of events of lots and lots of innocent people dying, hoping that it would make a change, but then it didn’t and they were forgotten. I’m not a fan of dying for a cause, and I’m even less a fan of killing lots of innocents for a cause, no matter how good it might be. I like living too much, and I think even if they would not bring the huge, real, positive change their deaths could bring, these innocents being alive could make a lot of small, individual, and varied important changes in many lives if they get the chance.”

20. Are there people in this world who, no matter how much time and penitence is given, should never be forgiven? 

“I think... yes, there are those people. I can’t name anyone spontaneously, but I do think that some people are just so caught up in their own web of lies and justifications and have such a twisted view of the world that they’re beyond being saved or forgiven. No, before you ask, this is not about Solas. I’m thinking about your stereotypical evil Magister for example, maybe he’s a blood mage, too, and killed all these innocent lives for a huge important purpose... I swear, this is not about Solas, although there probably are a few parallels.