#holyatomicpilebatman

And I still love her just like I did yesterday :(

Laughing with her on the phone made my night and probably my whole week x) her laugh is so freaking cute! ahh I missed it! good night everyone

I need her :( Every day turns colder and colder. She is the reason to my existence. I just miss her so much. Today will be tough  

Today I went to therapy and it went well. I cried so much. I miss her like the day misses the sun. I wish one day we find each other again. I have faith we will. Until then I will fix myself and prove her and everyone else I am good. For now all I can do is sit here and wait. A friend said, "if you love her like you said you do, you will wait for her and you will wait patiently" so here I am. It's tough but anything can happen. I do know that my love for her is incredible. How can you love someone that much from 2000 miles away? Only pure love could bare through that. Good night people.

Even though it is over, I am not giving up. I have faith and a lot of hope that this thing that she is doing is just probably a phase. I gotta learn how to let go but I am not going nowhere. I have faith that one day in the future, maybe soon, maybe later, things will be good and she will want to be with me again. All I have to do is wait patiently. I love her more than anything and I am not giving up. I will remain strong.

I bought her tickets to go see Paramore today and she called me right before just to tell me that she is excited and that she loves me. I told her that she deserved that and much more and to have loads of fun. She told me she was really nervous when she heard my voice and it reminded me of the very first day we talked on the phone. I remember it very well. She sounded nervous and sweet. x) and then I realized her voice is the most beautiful sound I've ever heard.