#holdingnothingback

🎶Behind this curtain there is a heart that's hurting. It's been taking a beating. It's starting to fall apart. And I feel like such an easy target. Dodging bullets, I'm exhausted. How can every moment be this hard? I'm holding nothing back from you. Doesn't really matter what I lose. Got a heart that's open. I'm broken and I want you to know. Jesus, I don't want anything coming in between you and me. Jesus, it doesn't matter what I have to go through. I'm holding nothing back, nothing back from you. I've got a list that goes on and on. It's overflowing with memories of everything that I've been doing wrong And I'll be the first to say, I've chased after so many foolish things looking for a way to kill the pain. Oh, I'm holding nothing back from you. Doesn't really matter what I lose. Got a heart that's open. I'm broken and I want you to know. Jesus, I don't want anything coming in between you and me. Jesus, it doesn't matter what I have to go through. I'm holding nothing back, nothing back from you. I try to do the right things. Why am I struggling day to day with these same old things? Whatever's taking your place, I'm getting out of the way. I'm getting out of the way. Jesus, I don't want anything coming in between... Jesus, I'll do what I gotta do. I'm holding nothing back, back from you. Jesus, I don't want anything coming in between you and me. Jesus, it doesn't matter what I have to go through. I'm holding nothing back, nothing back from you🎶 @ryansmusic #HoldingNothingBack #RyanStevenson #MusicThatReachesMySoul #ilovemusic #MusicIsMyTherapy #MusicSavedME #MusicSavesME #MusicHearsME #JesusSaidYesSoooYes💙 #JesusSaysGoIGo #JesusSaysStayIStay #JesusSaysMove #UnconditionalLoveOfJesusChrist https://www.instagram.com/p/B2Nxx_VHQ7o/?igshid=qvxpkx5nbjgs

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Behind this curtain there is a heart that's hurting It's been taking a beating. It's starting to fall apart And I feel like such an easy target. Dodging bullets, I'm exhausted How can every moment be this hard? I'm holding nothing back from you Doesn't really matter what I lose Got a heart that's open. I'm broken and I want you to know Jesus, I don't want anything coming in between you and me Jesus, it doesn't matter what I have to go through I'm holding nothing back, nothing back from you....❤️❤️❤️🙏🏼 #ohn1n309 #RYANSTEVENSON #LIVECONCERT #HOLDINGNOTHINGBACK (at Anchorage Baptist Temple)

This week without TV has been very eye-opening for me in general.  Because I have spent my spare time in His Word and praying, I have had some interesting revelations.  Where I am at is one of them.  But that is the truth that will set me free.  How can I repent and renew my mind on something if my eyes aren't open to it?  And the more I am into His Word, the more I learn about who God is and His character.  The more I learn about who He is the more I fall in love with Him.  The more I get to know Him the more I desire to be obedient and wait for His voice and timing.  And when we wait for Him we are not ashamed.  To You, O Lord, I lift up my soul.  O my God, in You I trust, Do not let me be ashamed; Do not let my enemies exult over me.  Indeed, none of those who wait for You will be ashamed; Those who deal treacherously without cause will be ashamed. Make me know Your ways, O Lord; Teach me Your paths. Lead me in Your truth and teach me, For You are the God of my salvation; For You I wait all the day. Ps 25:1-5 NASB  This is so key.  I know God has plans for me and I know those plans are beyond my wildest dreams but I will never see those plans come to fruition if I do not wait on His timing and His plan.  How many times have we stepped out on our own understanding because of a word or a belief this is what God was saying only to realize the timing wasn't right and it exploded in our faces?  Can I get an amen?  I know I am the queen of it. He has put desires in my heart but those desires cannot be fulfilled until I am willing to fully obey Him and wait on His timing.  Look at King David.  He was anointed king 20 years before he became king.  20 years!?!?!?!  The man had some serious patience but he was a man after God's own heart.   I want to be known as a woman after God's own heart.  

My new theme song...

Well, I was praying for help and guidance and it came in the form of Pastor Dan.  Praise God that we can do all things through Christ Who strengthens us because I cannot do this on my own but I need to.  Please pray for me!

I went to a praise and worship night in Richland Center last weekend. And I prayed and asked God where do I go?  What do I do?  I heard start a blog and pour yourself out for all the world to see.  Hold nothing back and be transparent.  Journal your struggles for healing will come to myself as well as others who are going through the same thing.  Be honest about where I am at and where I am going.  So here we go.  Join my journey as I go back to the basics and let God tear down those walls I have built in my life.  I never never done this before but obedience is better than sacrifice so here it is....