#hiding..

people in my life always ask me if the ketamine is working cause i think the way i describe the process is bad. i don’t know i don’t really enjoy the session much anymore bc my dose is so high so it’s kind of like a hassle for me but it’s only really the day of. like the overall benefit of not actively being suicidal and acting on it outweighs me being groggy and exhausted after each session. they also get spaced out the more you do it im at every ten days now i tried every two weeks but it was way too soon and not good like i was getting very sad in between. i also notice whatever mood im in before the session really does determine how i feel after. so i feel pretty open right now so i think it will help me cause really sad and stressed out rn also i dunno why i said all this im putting it in the keep reading thing cause what the hell why not…