#hey-tesbutt

1:Talk about the first time you watched your favorite movie.

I don’t really have a favourite movie - I have phases where I love a movie and then the next one comes along and i’m like wOAHcurrent favourite is probably Hotarubi No Mori e (‘Light Of The Firefly Forest’), an anime film whose art style and plot are fantastically wonderful. First time I watched it, unaware of the ending, I sobbed for half an hour. Not crying - full on, can-barely-get-a-breath-through-the-sobs sobbing. I still cry if I watch it now, even two years later.

2:Talk about your first kiss.

sOBS

3:Talk about the person you’ve had the most intense romantic feelings for.

they’re wonderful and don’t even realise it.

4:Talk about the thing you regret most so far.

for the first ever Christmas I was away from home it turned out to be my Grandma’s last. I regret choosing to be abroad when I should have been home for my Grandma’s last Christmas.

5:Talk about the best birthday you’ve had.

My eighteenth. We went to see Derren Brown’s new show and met him afterwards. He stole my glasses.

6:Talk about the worst birthday you’ve had.

Probably my sixteenth, maybe? It was okay but I was being bullied at the time and I didn’t have a party because I didn’t really have anyone to invite.

7:Talk about your biggest insecurity.

my body

8:Talk about the thing you are most proud of.

Probably working seven days a week in a hellish job to save enough money to travel to Africa on my own

9:Talk about little things on your body that you like the most.

My eyes? My hands? That’s about it

10:Talk about the biggest fight you’ve ever had.

Probably with my mum a couple of years ago. I remember screaming at her asking what she wanted to hear from me and she just went quiet and just said ‘i don’t know, anymore.’ god it was awful. Haven’t really fought with her since.

11:Talk about the best dream you’ve ever had.

I was happy - I had just enough money in a job I loved.

12:Talk about the worst dream you’ve ever had.

a reoccurring nightmare - we’re living in our old house and I wake up in the middle of the night to the house on fire and all my family aren’t there

13:Talk about the first time you had sex/how you imagine your first time.

how i imagine it? not forced

14:Talk about a vacation.

does volunteering in Africa count? Yes? I spent three months there with a herd of elephants.

15:Talk about the time you were most content in life.

Once again we go back to my time in Africa! I remember after being there for about a week. We were all piled into a taxi going somewhere and we were driving past the beach, Wake Me Up blasting from the radio, and I remember closing my eyes and finally realised that holy shit, i did this - i got here on my own and i’m having the time of my life

16: Talk about the best party you’ve ever been to.

never really invited to partiesi can’t think of anything

17: Talk about someone you want to be friends with.

misha collins

18: Talk about something that happened in elementary school.

everyone hated me because i was the reason tennis racquets were banned in school. I was on the playground one day and a ball came flying at my face, making my head fly back into a brick wall, knocking me outhence the school banned tennispeople said it was my fault

19: Talk about something that happened in middle school.

middle school is the same as high school in england

20: Talk about something that happened in high school.

first day there. first time meeting Mr. Stevens, a science teacher. He looked me up and down and said “Are your parents dwarves?”

21:Talk about a time you had to turn someone down.

there was this guy in secondary school who was really creepy and at times genuinely scary in the stuff he used to say. I’m uncomfortable with men anyway and he couldn’t get it into his head that I didn’t like him touching me at random moments e.g. rubbing my shoulder/hugging menot really turning someone down but that’s as close as???

22:Talk about your worst fear.

losing someone close to me

23:Talk about a time someone turned you down.

first time i ever told anyone i liked them: they laughed in my face.

24:Talk about something someone told you that meant a lot.

"You’re not lost, Léa. Just wandering." - Tesni Hill

25: Talk about an ex-best friend.

she could never admit that she was wrong. 

26: Talk about things you do when you’re sick.

complain more than usual, stay on tumblr all day, mope in self pity.

27: Talk about your favorite part of someone else’s body.

their laughter.OH GOD I DON’T KNOWerm erm ermFACE??

28: Talk about your fetishes.

i don’t think i have any to be honesti’m talking to Cas (the message sender) at the same time as i write thismaybe stigmatophilia? (tattoos)? god i don’t know

29: Talk about what turns you on.

not really sure. Different for each person I find attractive, I guess. Maybe a person’s voice, mannerisms, body type, personality??god i don’t know

30:Talk about what turns you off.

general idiocy, dickheadedness and assholery.

31: Talk about what you think death is like.

scary?

32: Talk about a place you remember from your childhood.

the graveyard near my primary school. Every day mum used to pick my brother and I up from the school with Bouncer (our first dog) and we used to walk through the graveyard asking mum to read the writing on some of the graves and talking about what kind of a person they may have beengod i read that back and that sounds so weird???

33: Talk about what you do when you are sad.

read, write, hide

34: Talk about the worst physical pain you’ve endured.

I had food poisoning so bad once I thought the stomach cramps were goona kill me. As I recall I was writhing on the bathroom floor crying for my mum omg

35:Talk about things you wish you could stop doing.

being lazy, eating unheathily and doubting myself

36:Talk about your guilty pleasures.

Reading unrealistic fiction about fictional characters falling in lovealso cas’ art (ﾉ⊙‿⊙)ﾉ～

37:Talk about someone you thought you were in love with.

i think i still am? if i ever was i don’t really have anything to compare it to

38:Talk about songs that remind you of certain people.

Shiver - ColdplayAfire Love - Ed SheeranStay With Me - Sam SmithCome Back Darling - UB40Til Kingdom Come - ColdplayShirtsleeves - Ed SheeranMr. Brightside - The Killers

39:Talk about things you wish you’d known earlier.

- that i wasn’t broken like i thought i was at age 15-18- that i didn’t deserve or ask for that man to hurt me- that i would eventually be okay and happy- that tattoos actually kick ass- that i’d lose my grandma when i did. i should have spent more time with her and taken her out to lunch when i fuckin had the chance to like three days before she passed away

40:Talk about the end of something in your life.