white, yellow, orange, pink, magenta, grey, then black.
“You look like you have your life all figured out’’
I do, smile a lot, laugh a lot, take selfies, dance a lot, party a lot. I have also been to many places, and I do love seeing new cities, different cultures, meet people. As happy as I may look, no I have not got my life all figured out. I go to bed every night thinking maybe i will not wake up tomorrow, some other nights i had chest pains, dizziness or i feel like all the gravity in this world is pulling me down and i feel so heavy. Every time i wake up i hoped i can stay asleep much more longer, even after an all day sleep marathon. I go out with my friends, I take care of ill people, I eat dinner with my family like any normal person would. But as soon as I’m behind these doors, when no one is really watching, I’m empty, I go from sleeping for 19 hours on my day off to 2 hrs of sleep to go to work because i get anxiety when it’s almost time to be normal again. I hate fake but I really am a fake person. No one knows, no one will probably know, or maybe they will, but it’ll be too late.
