#herandwords

I choose to express and embrace different aspects of my personalities. Aint no right or wrong way in expressing myself. I don’t want to be just a specific type of person. I want to explore unique parts of myself and let it radiate outwards naturally. I don’t aim to be righteous, because even perfection requires imperfection. I’ll do things I feel right, but I will allow myself to make mistakes., I will shine my light, but I will allow myself to embrace darkness when growth requires. I will bask myself in the illusion of happiness but will openly accept pain to let me evolve. I embrace, accept and understand duality. Sometimes I want to be shallow, be silly and laugh at stupid things, then I wanna be serious, have deep thoughts and analysis about things. I can consider myself smart enough from the things I learned, but I leave room for ignornance within me to know enough I know none. I will dance with the euphoria of music that gives, me then cry myself to sleep in melancholy. Just like music, I am not just one genre, I am a multifaceted being. My goal is not to be consistent, my personality is not supposed to be lenient. Even the world and life itself is not built in a righteous and perfect way, why should I be? I embrace darkness and light just as how exactly the world operates.

I understand your desire to be on the positive side, but that doesn’t mean you aren’t allowed to be sad, being sad and hurt doesn’t mean there is wrong with you, it only means you are a normal person feeling normal human emotions. You don’t have to be necessarily happy all the time, don’t bandage your pain and sadness with forced and inauthentic pretentious happiness,. You are allowed to feel and express your honest feelings rather than suppress it. You dont have to put a front like you are strong and invincible all the time. Feel it for what it is, cry if you need to, and let it cleanse you, let it release you, so then it heals you…

I used to demonize/villainize people who don't believe in God, people who mock other people who are heavily religious. I used to think that the people who do not believe in any type of religion are evil, I used to perceive that they are the bad people.

But as I learn more in life, I started to see things in a completely reversed perspective.

I now understand why some people choose to not go to church. There are some people who are church goers, they love to quote the bible on their facebook posts or captions, but then these are the same exact people who gossip about other people, they are the same people who often always judge other people. On the other side, I know people who never mention the bible, people who are not church goers, neither they care to let other people know of any kind of religious or spiritual beliefs that they have, yet they know how to accept and respect other people wholeheartedly despite of any differences. Even though they do not believe or categorize themselves in any kind of religion, they do believe in kindness, respect, values, love, forgiveness, acceptance, peace and grace. Whereas, there are people who would often flood their social media with biblical quotes, yet their attitude and actions does not reflect the goodness that the religion they believe in promotes.

I stopped basing my perception of whether someone is good or bad based off of their religious or spiritual beliefs. I have came into realization that you can't determine the goodness or the kindness of people based off what religion they belong to. People are so much more comlex than that. People can hide behind the false facade of holiness and righteousness and be completely the opposite way. They will wear their religion like a badge just to show other people that they are of good morale. While some people who appear to be the rebels, can be the most loving, kindest, understanding people, regardless of not being categorized to any religion or spiritual beliefs. A person's religion does not represent good moral values.

To see is not to believe, to believe is to see. The story that we have made up in our mind and we have attached our belief to, about ourselves, or about life, is controlling our fate, therefore; there’s no fixed or arranged destiny for us, we are the ones writing our own story through our beliefs, we are the ones creating our own fate. Whatever seed of thought that we have planted in our mind and we cultivated with strong belief will thrive as an experience in our so called reality. Our reality doesn’t limit us of anything other than our self-imposed and perceived limiting beliefs that then limit our potential experiences. Our mindstate dictates the expansion of our experiences, if our mind have already decided that we can’t, our reality will match this belief and it will prove us that we are right, the same way for whatever other beliefs we have put our loyalty to.