#heonsa

    from a young age, he has been accustomed to bottling up his thoughts and pushing them aside, feeling the need to always keep them under control; this is evidently unhealthy, and his internal troubles, which jumin often expresses as being a tangled ball of thread in his mind, only become more and more convoluted and increasingly hard to manage as a result. however, he’s uncomfortable discussing these “threads” with others, even those who he trusts and has a good, tight-knit relationship with ( such as his father and v ) which ties back in again with just how difficult it is to get jumin to open up, as earning his trust is solely a barrier that needs to be overcome in order for him to even consider opening up to someone. even though he may trust someone, he may not ever open up to them fully.

     based on such reasons and due to both the aforementioned departure of his birth mother and rika, as well as his natural tendency to immerse himself in work ( often to the point where he’ll overwork himself and not leave time to focus on much else; he often fools himself into thinking that he’s content with this, as the company’s success rides greatly on his performance as executive director ), he is highly and unhealthily dependent on elizabeth 3rd’s companionship, despite her being feline, and clings onto the belief and hope that she understands his internal struggles and worries ( though not fully ). part of this is him finding assurance in the fact that, as she isn’t human, she therefore can’t lie to him or betray him as humans do. it is only when she goes missing in jumin’s route that he sees this as a “betrayal” of her wanting to also leave him, and comes to the gradual realisation that projecting his emotions ( and also his attachment and unreciprocated love towards rika, which the game heavily alludes to ) onto her is not the right way to handle his own internal issues, and that it differs greatly to a healthy companionship between him and another human.

     WRITING ——  in english, he writes in a script of elegant cursive that slopes a little to the right ( typically, the less sloped and the more closer together his words are, the more hastily they were written ) : accentuated curves of ink, smooth and rounded but receding to a point at the end of each pen stroke.