#hellyena

Autophagos // @vriskarlmarx

Helly/Helena, disordered eating, non-linear, alternating POV, <1k

Summary: Helly and Helena live with each others' consequences.

Comments: Lovely writing, and does justice to the implications of the infamous egg-eating scene.

Closer // sheepknitssweater

Helly/Helena, masturbation, object insertion, Helly POV, 3k

Summary: Helly R. finds an alternative means of escape.

Comments: I loved all the thought that went into Helly's characterization and psyche here. The sense of violation she feels after finding that Helena had sex with her body, and then her masturbating more and more painfully as retribution—not only is it hot, but it makes perfect sense.

coming from the inside // liraels

Helly/Helena, mild Helly/Mark, Helly POV, masturbation, self-harm, 2k

Summary: A week in the life of Helly R.

Comments: Great characterization of Helly—really gets across how limited her agency and access to information is, at the same time as she keeps asserting her personhood. And I appreciated Helena's implied fascination and longing for what Helly has.

déjà vu // killingcve

Helly/Helena, siblings au, drug use, PWP, mention of mark, Helena POV, 9k

Summary: What’s one I need you text between sisters after five years of radio silence? The catalyst for an impromptu nightclub visit, apparently.

Comments: In the show, Helena claims she thinks of Helly as a sister, so of course there is fic exploring what that would actually be like. I admit the twin!aus create a fun fucked-up dynamic, but it's a bit different from the fucked-up dynamic that personally draws me to this ship. Nevertheless, I'm reccing this fic because it's fantastic. I'm in love with the writing style.

for you i hold my breath // irisesandwhitelilies

Helly/Helena, self-harm, masturbation, alternating POV, character study, non-linear, 4k

Summary: She doesn’t know yet, doesn’t know that life means sacrifice, that it means nothing, in the end.

Comments: I adored how intense, resentful, and weird both Helly and Helena were here. Gorgeous writing.

her favorite color // outsidehelly

Helly/Helena, dream sex, masturbation, Helena focus, unrequited, 6k

Summary: Helena wears a yellow dress to lift Helly's spirits.

Comments: Helena is down BAD for Helly and Helly is not having it. Mostly. Really great character study of Helena, and I always love when the person with more power on paper is also the one being torn up inside by their one-sided feelings.

mutually beneficial // @dykeselfcest

Helena/Natalie, Helena/Helly, referenced Helena/Harmony, Helena POV, <1k

Summary: When Helena and Natalie fuck, there is little desire involved.

Comments: In which Helena is messed-up and utilitarian about sex. Focuses on her flings with women, rather than just on Helena/Helly.

numb enough for two // irisesandwhitelilies

Helly/Helena, character study, body image issues, Helena POV, 2k

Summary: Helena wonders if she even knows what insecurity is.

Comments: A truly inspired use of a mirror. All Helena's POV, scrabbling for something she can't have.

they’re right outside the door (and they don’t know) // themetgayla

Helly/Helena, siblings au, PWP, Helena POV, 7k

Summary: hellyna fuck nasty in the bathrooms at a lumon gala

Comments: For my thoughts on sibling!AUs, see my comment for "déjà vu" above. This one's just plain hot. Helly and Helena have a pretty positive, though unhealthy and codependent, relationship. I was surprised how much I could buy it here!

what i find // @idyllhighway

Helly/Helena, set during season 1, self-harm, disordered eating, masturbation, sadism/masochism, Helly POV, 4k

Summary: when all else fails, helly finds a more effective and unorthodox way of communicating with her outie

Comments: Helly expresses her displeasure with her outie in several ways, most notably by hurting herself, only for Helena to be like 'jokes on u that's my kink". Pre-identity reveal, so Helly still has no idea who Helena is.

when we were young / picture me (in the weeds) // @dykeselfcest

Helly/Helena, imaginary twin, pre-canon, multi-work, Helena focus, 2k

Summary: When Helena is six years old, her sister appears in the backyard. / Helena, and Helly, and the ghost of someone who never existed.

Comments: I WENT CRAZY FOR THIS. The first fic explores a young Helena's relationship with her imaginary twin sister, whom she named Helly. The second explores her very normal feelings about Helly R., who she can't help but think of as her imaginary sister turned real. Really cool concept that makes their relationship even more fucked up, to my joy.

will you bite the hand that feeds? // @dykeselfcest

Helly/Helena, masturbation after suicide attempt, Helena focus, 1k

Summary: Helena in the aftermath of Helly's suicide attempt. (Yes, she does get weird about it.)