like what the fuck what the FUCK he literally had minutes to process everything!! just minutes to process having cas admit to having made a deal to save jack, process having cas pour genuine loving sentiments all over him, process hearing cas tell him he's IN LOVE with him and that HE is the one thing cas wants but doesn't think he can have and THEN ALSO process the fact that cas saying these things is going to be what kills him AND ALL THE WHILE having both of their lives in immediate danger with death quite literally knocking at the door. his best friend was there and gone within minutes and he was left sobbing on the floor where he stayed for the entire night what the fuck WHAT THE FUCK.












