#hellfiresaphira

black cat: favorite urban legend?

Disappointing answer: I have none, mainly because I never  dived too deep into them Maybe I should?

Thanks for asking! ♥

tangelo: if you could be any mythical creature, which would you be?

Good question. A unicorn would be rad, or a phoenix!

Thanks for asking! ♥

Ooooh that actually sounds really lovely~

Cream - We don’t talk, but your blog is A+

Awww, thank you flower, so is yours! Feel free to come over and talk to me whenever you wish to. It might take me a while to reply, but I promise I will!

(I’m taking this opportunity to remind myself that I could also take the first step for once and talk to people. Silly me!)

I'veneverhadthegutstotalltoyoubefore but omg, I hope you manage to calm down soon and nothing else bothers you ;^;

Aaaaaah but flower you can talk to me anytime! I´m not that scary! (My living room is, though...)

So, some things have been building up recently that I’m very pissed about. This post goes out to everyone that has ever been bullied or is a bully. I know this won’t make much impact on said bullies but I can at least try. 

First off, to people that have been bullied: It does, eventually get better. It sucks. I know it sucks. It sucks even more when your parents or teachers don’t do anything and it feels like you’ve been stabbed when someone says you deserved it. I was bullied from pre-k to 6th grade because I didn’t act like a normal human child should have. I preferred acting like an animal instead, and I always had ‘imaginary’ friends. I’ve also essentially been bullied by teachers. In 7th grade I was homeschooled and the animal habits stopped, then because I didn’t do my work on homeschooling I went back to public school.

8th grade, my first day at my locker, I looked off to the side and there was another girl there. She smiled at me and in response I glared, having the intention of getting through the rest of school with no friends. I ended up adding her and 2 others as friends. I’m in the end of my 10th grade year now, and it’s been two years since we’ve seen each other. I’ve gotten better a little bit, made 10 friends though 7 have recently graduated, leaving me with 3, and I often still feel completely and utterly alone. However it’s worth suffering through the loneliness because that just makes it feel amazing when I actually talk to them again. So look for people that are just as weird or fucked up as you. It’s great. 

To the bullies, now, be it purposefully hurting someone or doing it on accident. Do you have siblings or family that are under 7 years old? If you look in their eyes I can almost guarantee that you’ll see all their joy and happiness to be alive. Now look at yours, or the people you hurt. You don’t have it, and they probably don’t either. Whatever drove you to bullying blew out yours and you blew out theirs. Now think back to that family member, or make one up. What if one day they came home and you did’t see their light anymore? I don’t know if you understand it or not, but hurting people like this is like murder. You drive these people to stop trusting others. When you play with their friendship, they get it in their heads that people always leave. They curl up and hide in their own little shell in an attempt to protect themselves. Some start to hurt themselves. Some want to die. Some fucking do.

Your words, your actions, hurt. I don’t give a rat’s ass what’s going on in your personal life, you have no right to torture people like this. You especially have no fucking right to torture them over how they look, speak, act, their sexuality, social status, race, nothing. If they don’t conform to your standard of normal, who the fuck cares? It doesn’t matter. And if you have an apple pie, cookies-and-milk life and take satisfaction out of hurting others, fuck you. What possible fucking reason do you have for that? 

So, to all of you who hurt and laugh at someone who’s trying not to cry, or go ballistic on your sorry ass, think about the family member that you never want hurt.

Some people are stronger than others, and have so much love inside them that they forgive over and over and over again but even they have their limits. Other people can barely bring themselves to care about anybody else because they don’t want to get hurt for giving a fuck. Others don’t even try to care. That’s not to say they’re weak, though. They’re just done. They can’t care about themselves, or others, or anything.

Bullying is a form of torture.

Driving someone to self-harm is torture.

Driving someone to suicide is murder.

I don’t know if anyone at all is going to agree with this, as this is just my opinion, but I figured I’d share. But for fucks sake, have the decency to stop hurting others. 

Apologies if this offends anybody.

Thank you for your time.