#hellboygbc

its been 3 weeks since i was laying in the hospital almost dead. i took enough sleeping pills to kill 3 grown men. the only reason im still here is because my friend called 911 and told them where i was and the paramedics that found me. im thankful for them so much. i was so scared, i thought that was it for me. all i remember is saying, "i dont want to die yet." what i don't understand is how i still have thoughts of killing myself. almost everyday i want to put a bullet in my head. but im still here and im still working on fixing myself.

guys, i got accepted into a community college. i fucking did it. a lot of assholes said i wouldn't be shit and i'd be a druggie my whole life, but fuck y'all ima make something out of myself.