#heidi posts personal things

Zoe is on her 3rd Valentine's date tonight and I had very good makeup from an audition earlier in the day, so I decided to try out a lesbian bar in Seattle and even for a Sunday night it seemed super empty. They weren't serving food and I hadn't eaten dinner, so I went to a different queer bar and still didn't manage to meet anyone 🫥

I would feel bad for Zoe having to comfort both her wife and girlfriend for crashing out over the same woman, were I not so petulant about the fact that every woman she has liked since coming out as polyamorous has returned her affection.

It's only the 3rd and nobody is having a funnier Pride than me. When Zoe first came out as trans 2 years ago, I received a really shitty text from my aunt basically saying that I had been manipulated and isolated from my family and that I didn't have to be a lemming and go along with it. So imagine my surprise now YEARS LATER learning that a bunch of Zoe's former conservative guy friends had messaged her to accuse *me* of lib-pilling her and convincing her to transition.

Went to my first Katsucon, and aside from flight issues it was a lot of fun! But my silly brain is already thinking of my next new cosplans. Hiyori is now back to being a Kumori goal, so I really should be focusing on embroidery again. I've put enough hours in that it would actually have been faster and easier to teach myself how to digitize the designs instead of doing it by hand, but I give up learning computer problems really easily.

We're located in one of the areas of Washington that got hit pretty hard by the storm on Tuesday, and I'm struggling y'all. We had a tree fall on our roof that hasn't gotten removed yet, and we aren't expected to get power back until tomorrow. I'm fortunate to be able to warm up and charge my phone at work, and we're going to be able to shower at a friends house tonight, but I just have absolutely no focus due to the stress, and while I'm trying to focus on the positives it's also making me feel guilty for being "wahhh I don't have power" while there are people who are in much more precarious situations. I want to throw a toddler tantrum to let everything out, but at the same time I don't feel like I'm allowed to lose it as long as there are people who are dealing with more stress.

My wife's mental health has been so much better after after deleting various social medias, but I gotta say as someone still on them, the absolute worst doomscrolling is on various Discord servers for shared interests where you try posting and nobody responds 🥲