#heatache

Oh, my one that got away ~

How one kiss.

One touch.

One word.

One moment.

One breath.

Could change that.

But I respect you

And what you say you want now

Although sometimes I don’t want to.

Sometimes I want to kiss you, feverishly.

Sometimes I want to taste you.

Touch you.

Tangle my self around you

Like I’ve got nothing else to do.

Then I want to scream.

You frustrate me.

I frustrate you.

Because in the end we are both lying to ourselves

Saying we’re okay with different things and other people

We’re not.

It’s true, this is fire raging hot.

And we keep getting burnt

And we keep fueling it

Because we’re addicted

To the taste.

Touch.

High.

I hate how we lie.

We lie because it’s easy

Because the truth is difficult and hopeless.

- a series of random thoughts

Again, I Hide

I hide behind my computer again. The waters tested, but back into the boat again. I stepped out upon the waves, and faced my fears of falling beneath the Icey depths. I walked for a while out of that boat, but the crack of the sky, made me feel I might die. I began to sank and back into the boat I went. Safe inside the boat. 

In my mind I tested the waters, I started to fly…

After someone hurts you in a relationship ends do you ever regret not seeing the signs? Do you ever think what if I hit dress left after that third sign may be able to be going through this heartache?

Some people to destroy your life. But they were a big part of your life for a long time. Having someone be a part of your life for that long makes it hard for you not to like them. Makes it hard for you to hate them. It's because you understand them. You got to know deeper parts of them then some people ever will. And even when they hide things and they push you away and they do things that hurt you, you can't help but to love the Peace of them that you saw that nobody else did.

It's okay to still love them. And if not love it's okay to still be respectful toward them because they are a great deal of what made you who you are today. You must respect the experiences that you went through whether you like the person or not. Their life intersecting with yours brought about an experience that will forever change you. But you need to choose who you're going to let that experience like she become.