#heartche

with no ending

because if it had an ending 

Free me, From these binding chains, Imprinting self doubt, Into absorbing skin, Once free to breathe, But now imprisoned, By hidden scars, From open wounds, Inflicted when you left.

Free me, From this despair, And torturous thoughts, Festering internal fear, To bleeding heart, Soul ripped apart, From inside out, By thoughtless words, Flung in contemptuous disdain.

My life destroyed, When your…

Title: Anong Nangyari Sa Ating Dalawa (What Happened To The Two Of Us)

Artist: Aiza Seguerra

This Filipino love song just one this very competitive song composition contest where people write the song and a very popular Filipino singer interprets the song. 

The basic synopsis of the song is that when you get into a relationship, the love is strong, fresh, and pretty steamy at times ^_^ lol. Then all of a sudden... out of nowhere.. the love just fades away... 

Below is the lyrics that Google Translate translated BUT I did make some adjustments that Google Translate did not translate well enough lol

You were what I dreamed of

You were what I was looking for

But yet why did everything changed

The warmth of our love

Seemed to have become scarce

We made a commitment for life

We promised we would not breakup

But why did our love cool down

Though in that you

At prayed Almighty (this part was wonky/hard to translate :p)

What happened to the two of us

I thought before we were one

Was I the one who did not give enough

Or was it you who did not fight

In testing our love for one another

What happened to the two of us

Why did our love just now disappeared

Feelings are hurt

Hearts are wounded

We promised to love but now where is it

Where the vows

I thought our love was everlasting

But why is it now hurting

Is our love just up to this point

What happened to the two of us

I thought before we were one

Was I the one who did not give enough

Or was it you who did not fight

In testing our love for one another

What happened to the two of us

Why did our love just now disappeared

Feelings are hurt

Hearts are wounded

We promised to love but now where is it

he feeling of being left behind.. :( ung nasosolo.. :( i know he wanted his space.. his own life to enjoy.. pero di kasi talaga ko sanay.. :( 

yesterday night ng BulSu.. the plan was magpaparty party na lang sila sa cabanas.. eh ako ewan ko.. mas naaaligaga ako pag nagiistay sa bahay na alam kong me ginagawa pa cya somewhere.. 

so nagaya ako ng friends para manuod ng movie.. unfortunately si reah lang nakasama ko kasi ung mga wala kong kwentang kaibigan me kanya kanyang lakad.. so aun nga.. ang plano magchichill chill lang muna sa slam and dine habang hinihintay ung last full show..

pero ang nangyari nasarapan kame sa pagchichill.. so decided to do our own party kahit kameng dalawa lang..

war kami ni boyfriend 2 days na.. nawala kasi ung mood ko simula nung makita kong kachat nya ex nya.. and it was like

SHIT KA! ETO KA NA NAMAN! DI KA NA NAGSAWANG MAKIPAGLANDIAN SA MGA TAONG ALAM MONG AYOKONG AYOKONG NAKAKAUSAP MO! TANGINA LANG NAMAN! HARAPAN! SHIT TALAGA!!!

So back to the story.. aun nga.. we drank 2 bottles of tanduay ice blue.. di cya masarap.. so triny namin ung tanduay ice red.. parang juice.. haha pero medyo tipsy na ko.. then bigla cyang dumating..

i’m expecting him to be in a good mood.. ineexpect kong makikipagbati cya.. pero ndi.. argh talaga.. tapos aun na.. ngburst into tears na ko na parang bata.. 

umalis ulit.. sinundo nya ung friends nya tapos bumalik sila.. kaso they went to another bar beside the bar kung nasan kame..

so dahil me motivation akong uminom sige! 2 bottles pa! gara kasi ng feeling.. ewan ko.. ako ni minsan di ko cya nagawang hindi isama saan man ako magpunta.. :”“”(

sabi ko ke reah eto agreement natin.. 

pag pumunta cya sa place namin sige bati bati na.. wala ng away.. pero kung hindi no texts, no calls for him

eh ang nangyari pumunta cya.. huwwaaaww.. sweet sweetan to death naman ngayon.. saya diba? niaya nya kami dun sa bar kung nasan sila so gorabels naman kame..

pero i think its a bad decision. naOP lang kasi kme.. feel na feel ko ung separation of groups nila samen.. at eto pa! si boyfie halos dun pa din ang attention.. so ano kame? pampadame sa group? argh!!!!!

sa sobrang inis ko sabi ko uuwi na ko.. this is the worst night i ever experience!!!!!!

it was almost 12 am pero habang nasa byahe ko ni isang text!!! ni isang tawag!!! wala!!!! yeah!!! to think na AKO LANG MAGISA UUWI NG HATING GABI!!