#heartbroken2016

i can’t write it on facebook

3 months have gone by and i’m still hurting

im so uncomfortable that my stomach doesn’t allow me to feed myself 

5 years? i dont even think i can wait 1 year 

i’m only 21 

i’m only 21

i’m only 21

will be 22

just turned 28

will be 22

will be 23

will be 24

will be 25

will be 26

I wake up early 

i’m on time for work

i filled the sections with pamphlets 

i start by sitting at the desk

i greet visitors 

i go on my break

two workers are talking

people are staying until 9pm? i’ll stay too

enter a gallery and this woman named Alice and her husband Henry are amazed at the exhibit

she asks who to speak to about presenting their art at the museum

i give her an email

i take a 20 minute break

i memorize lines

head director person comes

we close the galleries 

eye contact is being made 

this guy starts talking 

people are just coming in 

everyone looks nervous

i tell them we’ll play a game

game 1: how many drunk people can we mess around with

game 2: how many numbers can we get

vicky: 3

peter: 1

tiz: 0

songs are okay

people are drinking

one man says, “are we not allowed to touch you? you’re sectioned off?”

i laugh, i feel like a rat

i see peter jumping from across the room telling me to come here

he hands me a cup of wine

we drink it secretly 

MVP CATERER BRINGIN’ THE VEAS DRINKS

nothing can go wrong

vicky: 4

peter: 3

tiz- 1

“yo people be starin’”

nothing can go wrong

aretha franklin comes on 

nothing can go wrong

eneida starts killin’ it

nothing can go wrong

i start dancin’

nothing can go wrong

signed, sealed, delivered comes on

nothing can DEF. go wrong

she knows the words

nothing can go wrong

i see deblasio talkin’ and singin’

i spot a few

the one i was interested in was with a woman

can’t go after that

let it go

8:11pm, less than an hour

man comes up asking about the art work

man was with woman

nothing can go wrong

man says woman is friend

nothing can go wrong

man says he attends hunter

nothing can go wrong

man is for Queens

nothing can go wrong

man is tall

nothing can go wrong

man be lookin’ like james franco

nothing can go wrong

tiz cock blocks

nothing can go wrong

exchanged numbers

nothing can go wrong

boss tells me to leave

nothing can go wrong

will see man on saturday

nothing can go wrong 

did i just get a number?

vicky-5

vicky(2)- 1

i smoked

nothing can go wrong

i drove

nothing can go wrong

i turn the wheel

nothing can go wrong

i enter my house

nothing can go wrong 

i go on facebook

nothing can go wrong

you’re tagged in a photo with your ex in another state. your mother “loves” the photo. your sister “likes” it, so does your best friends. 

what does that say?

what does. that say.

a day that has been nothing but good has been ruined by my abandoned priorities and by a stupid post. 

i let it ruin my day, i gave permission to it. i hear the rain starting to fall

and it’s late

or early

i’m tired and sad

i...this is a really long post

my chest and arms feel numb

and i feel so silly because he doesn’t feel this way

i have a date on saturday

he’s traveled with his ex