#heart's diary queue

Its 6pm and I haven't done any active studying today. I woke up late and dragged my morning, wasting a lot of time cooking breakfast. I couldn't start despite repeating the intention in my head. Maybe its the burnout getting to me. I've decided to engage in my distractions for 30more minutes and after which I MUST get back on work. Wish me all the best friends, this might get tough.

I just finished my general paper exams and I bought myself some sushi from makisan ^^ It was kinda good but not filling enough and for $10, it should have at least made me feel full. I don't think I'm gonna buy from it anytime soon seeing how it crunches my wallet so badly. Anyways I have maths tomorrow and I've been scoring really poorly for it ever since I came to college :/ hopefully tomorrow I'll make lesser careless mistakes and do well enough to get a C or something :> !

never once did i feel capable of accomplishing 8hours of independent studying outside of school hours but lo and behold i have been blessed by god today. good job to me for pushing through honestly. however, despite my accomplishment today the anxiety of the upcoming alevel exams is still lingering over my soul, digging its stinking nails into my pink heart and preventing me from feeling happy about a new victory. sigh.