#hearburn

I'd go to the hospital for this chest pain if I knew what it was from. I usually get it with heartburn and in my throat but with this chest cold it makes it feel 10x worse but you can't go to the ER for heartburn so I suppose I have to fight it on my own? God willing I'll be alright but this has been 2-3 nights in a row of this.

I have heartburn so I feel like i can barely move until that goes away. I can't buy ginger because I am broke. I am incredibly dizzy because my coffee drink had a days worth of sugar in it. I can't workout to get rid of the dizziness because of the heartburn. And my hip hurts so fucking bad I can't even go for a walk. I can't stretch the hip because of the heartburn. My room is a mess but I can't bend over to clean anything because of the heartburn. I really want my hip to be okay. It was getting better. I haven't seen the physical therapist in many weeks and now I don't have insurance anymore. I tried signing up for obamacare but the website wasn't working. FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Maybe I should move.

A fucking cat that lives in my apartment knocked over my garbage can because it is so hungry because it's owner hasn't fed it in days, and I can't clean up the mess because any bending over its excruciating. 

I suppose I should take my health a little more seriously.

I do, but I do push it to the limit sometimes. I really need help. I guess one thing that's free is meditation. Yoga is nice too but once my heartburn goes away then i can do it.

No more dairy. No more white sugar. No more wheat. Very minimal alcohol. I also can't have red peppers either.

I've recently had a spurt of ideas for zines, but as far as actually completing zines...well, that's far from done.  I'm thinking of doing a series on fake/imagined histories--an imagined history of zines, an imagined history of hipsters.  Not so much research as impressions.