#head stuff

But I won't lie, I look at my experience as a child on the internet and like.... I was definitely exposed to too much inappropriate material as a kid due to the Internet but without the Internet I would've been completely incompetent, more isolated than I already was, and probably dead.

It sometimes makes me think that I was meant to die. If my family censored the internet like advocated for I would've done the right thing much sooner, without hesitation. Because I wouldn't have friends or learn anything outside what is allowed for me to learn. I would've moved just as perverted and sensually as I did during those times cause the Internet was not my only access to sex and perversion. Would be dumber and more stupid now.

Without the Internet I wouldn't have much knowledge at all and if my parents really did what's recommended, I really would have been stuck.

I’m exhausted. Therapy has been exhausting for weeks. It’s not been without progress/results, but I’m already drained from raising a 15 month old and working full time.

My wife is really convinced I should pursue an ASD assessment with the hope being an “answer” to my questions about my childhood, but also to help get some accommodations at work.