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Demo updated: October 16, 2024.

Current word count: 30.2k (Excl. commands)

DISCLAIMER: GAME IS RATED A STRONG R / 18+

Trigger warnings: drug use & trafficking, alcohol & alcoholism, heavy language, gun/physical violence, police brutality, blood, death, & murder.

A more extensive list will be available in-game, and the choice to skip certain triggers is a choice for those who so desire. The warnings listed here are unavoidable, but a disclaimer of triggers present in any given chapter can be enabled.

It was always going to end like this. Your palms scrape against the wall, staining it red while pain seeps into your torn flesh. Strained breaths force out of your lungs, misting the brick in a vivid crimson, your fingers searching for purchase through the agony. 

Frigid metal presses harshly against your temple, and the click that resonates from the gun echoes in your ears like a mock gong. 

A knuckle cracks when it tightens around the trigger. You should’ve known.

It was always going to end like this.

You step into the boots of the Vice President of Hungry Dogs MC; a ragtag gang you and your best friend formed on that one picturesque twilight evening three years ago. What began as a simple idea between friends developed over time, your effort and struggles winning you both notoriety and infamy, enough so that the city council now considers you a threat. The city folk utter the name of your club in both awe and fear, and you play the role of both boogeyman and saint in the minds of San Maroans. Wherever you go, your colors turn heads. You are not only surviving, but thriving.

But like all success stories, yours too, had an end.

After years of empty threats, the city takes action against you, and the raid pushed on your meeting grounds is extensive. Everything falls apart, and you’re left to pick up the fragments of a once-great empire, your safety net torn to pieces, and sympathetic faces are few, and far between. With your President missing, the burden of leadership falls on your shoulders.

Your club has scattered into the wind; scared, detained, or dead. Threats loom over you like a shadow; The law is out for your soul, and rival clubs want your head on a pike.

There’s no other choice but to fight.

Extensive character creation; too many variables to name here! Assume name(s), nickname, appearance (skin details galore), gender, pronouns, sexuality, romantic orientation, family history, reflections on the club, addictions, and customization of your bike. To cite a few.

Heavily character and action driven, your choices matter, and have a tremendous impact on the ending(s) and what happens to the gang and its remaining members.

Hone your skills to fit your play style: A silver-tongued con-man, a hardened brawler, or a ruthless trailblazer; A deceptive trapper, or elusive diplomat, the possibilities are vast. 

Pursue one out of three varying storylines; the “Forever Dogs, Dogs Forever”, “Beginning of the End”, or “Betrayal at Zenith”, each essentially altering the story into an entirely different game.

Find time for romance with one of the (currently) five romantic interests, each with their own obstacles, challenges, and shortcomings; the leader, the enforcer, the enemy, the greenhorn, or the masked rider. All are also open for platonic befriending, rivalry, flings, frenemy options, and all sexual scenes are optional and skippable.

Ignoring the facts about Zoom being dangerous as it is said it steals info from you and shares it… I was in my first zoom party a couple of days ago.

HDIF or How Does It Feel to be loved, has guests djs once in a while on an online live stream. This time it was with the one and only Stephin Merrit.

He dj’ed for about an hour although I was present at the  zoom streaming only for 20 minutes. (You can chose to be in the zoom or just listen to it) There were like 300 listeners and from those about 100 on zoom.

It was fun to see how others acted in front of the camera and with such good music. I kind of wanted to dance, maybe next time.

Found some great music and it was lovely that he closed with Belle and Sebastian.

Some bangers he shared with us:

Plug Me In · Add N To (X)

The man who dies everyday - Ultravox

Erase you- ESG  soooo good

The Cooks of cakes and kindness - The Californians

Watching you without me - Kate Bush (Finally a song I like)

Rainbow Tree- The lemon pipers

They Saw The Fat One Coming -  Strawberry Alarm Clock

Why is there no post about Amber’s 10th birthday party on Sunday?

Or Saturday’s trip to the South Bank to see Jacqueline Wilson talk?

Or seeing the awe-inspiring Kevin Rowland DJ at the always wonderful How Does It Feel To Be Loved the same night?

Or my visit to Science Fiction Theatre yesterday, watching The Thirteenth Floor?

All of which would normally deserve a full and frank discussion. Unfortunately, I’m in the midst of one of my regular attempts to copy all of the many years of content from my old website into this one.

There have been some problems with my stupc.co.uk domain being hacked and used to send tens of thousands of spam emails.

Fortunately, I pay my tech-genius friend Matt Shaw to deal with all that; but to save him some work I’m once again trying to get all of the old content migrated here, onto WordPress.

Most of it is done, but a large block from around 2007 still needs doing. It’s a finicky and repetitive job, but the reminders of Millie Carter, aged one year, are making me smile.

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