#hcs2017

Your wish is my command!~

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“Fuck off {Y/N}.” Kanda spurred at you while ordering his regular soba fromJerry. You were looking for Alma, usually he’d be out in the cafeteria during lunch time socializing with his friends, yet, he wasn’t,

“C’mon Kanda! You’re the only person I know that knows all of his hangout spots!”

You were apprehensive when you didn’t spot Alma at lunch, so you began a hunt to look for him. Not being around wasn’t like him,

“Maybe he just wants to be left alone right now genius.”

You shook your head, “Alma? Wanting to be alone? The one person that turns to people when he needs to recharge?”

“Could you hurry up Jerry-“

“KANDA!”

Kanda held his forehead in annoyance, wanting to just walk away or bash your head in, “Have you checked his room genius..?”

“Already looked.”

“The laborator-“

“Been there-“

“The training-“

“Check, check and check-“

Kanda groaned, his face heating up by the second. You were fully aware of the anger that was omitting from Yuu, but Alma was one of your very close friends, and his disappearance was concerning you. Right then, Jerry handed Kanda his lunch, “Here you go hon’!~” Kanda quickly grabbed it and gave a small ‘thanks’ before he scurried away from you,

“Kanda! I’m not done with you!” You jogged behind him, still prying him for more answers, “Check my room!” You stopped in your tracks when Kanda sat at his table, “What? Why?” The stern exorcist groaned even louder this time, “Sometimes he goes into my room where he knows no one else can find him but me. Just don’t touch anything when you’re in there, and get him out!” An odd hiding spot, yet made sense since Alma was closest to Yuu. You gave a small smile and ran off before thanking the grumpy exorcist, “Thanks Kanda!” “Don’t mention it.”

-:-

For some reason, Kanda’s door was quite intimidating, even though it looked like all the rest. Maybe it was the fact that everyone knew it was his room. Even still, that didn’t stop you from knocking your {S/C} knuckles on it. Three knocks resonated against it, leaving a tense silence right after. It felt like forever until you heard a faint voice come from the inside, “Hello? Yuu?”

You let out a deep sigh, recognizing Alma’s voice instantly. So he was in there, “No, it’s {Y/N} Alma, may I come in?”

“Kanda’s not in here-“

“I’m not here for him, I came looking for you silly.”

Alma became silent, not until shortly after opening the door slightly, peeking out of the crack to look at you. You gave a small smile, looking at him with a softness only he recognized, “Let me in Alma.. “ His eyes shot to the ground, shyness evident on his face. The usually energetic Alma only left the door cracked and submerged into the room. You followed inside, opening the door wide enough to slip in, only to close it after entering. The room was dark, not surprising for Kanda, but not for Alma. You spotted him sitting on the corner of Yuu’s bed, his legs folded into his chest while his head and arms laid on his knees. There was no bright aura surrounding him like there usually was, his eyes looked at you with a sadness sitting in them, “Did you need something {Y/N}?” The silence that filled the room was taken away by Alma’s deep downtrodden voice. A certain sympathy struck you, he seemed helpless and you’ve never seen him like this.

“No, I just wanted to check up on you, you haven’t had lunch. Plus you weren’t around and socializing like you usually are, so.. I got a little worried..” Alma’s expression became a little more gentle when you said that. He then buried his head into his knees, his hair spiking out and messing up as he rolled his face around. But then.. a small cry was heard from him. Your heart dropped, the pushed moans emitting from his throat made you want to hold him, “Oh {Y/N}.. I-I- just.. can’t.. seem.. to be.. happy..”

That’s what hit hard.

You couldn’t hold back, you had to. You ran to his side on the bed and held him close. Alma unraveled and wrapped his arms around you while crying into your neck. His legs fell over the side of the bed, letting his chest lay against yours, “Alma.. what happened to you.. please tell me..” His crying wouldn’t cease, the moans became louder as he dug his face deeper into your neck to muffle the sounds. All you could do was rub his back and comb through his hair for comfort, and sometimes that’s all someone needs. Soon Alma began to relax, his cries becoming quieter with each breath. You could feel dry tear stains on your skin, and saw them on his cheeks as he looked up at you, “Alma, will you tell me why you were crying now?” You asked while giving a small chuckle. Alma followed along with another chuckle, trying to wipe any tears that were still wet on his skin, “It’s just.. I keep having nightmares about what happened- you wouldn’t understand. You weren’t there-“

“Alma. Please.”

His pale blue eyes shot away from yours. Not wanting to face you with his past,

“I did.. something terrible.. a long time ago {Y/N}. A lot of people, lost their lives.. because of m-me-“ The black haired boy broke down once more, not being able to fight the tears threatening to fall. He held onto you again, but this time his head was shoved into your chest, and his arms grasped your lower back, “If- you knew- the things.. I did.. I fear that you.. would hate me-“ between each line of words, his breathing hitched. Your heart sank to your stomach. You had no idea what he was talking about, “Alma, maybe I won’t? Maybe I have the power to look past everything. You must be a different person than who you were before, and we can’t fix this if you don’t tell me..” Alma looked up once more to match with your eyes, your arms now found their way into his hair, “Please?”

He nodded.

-:-

Alma proceeded to tell you about the Second Exorcist project, and how he heard some of the scientists planning to put Kanda down, or in other words ‘kill’ him. He explained how hurt and distraught he was about it at the time. When he told the part about the homicide in the laboratory he committed, you couldn’t believe it. Alma? Do such a thing? As he went along with the story, more tears began to fall from his cheeks, “I-I.. was just.. so hurt at the time.. I grew to hate the Order.. they couldn’t take Kanda away from me- and I was planning to kill him too-“ more cries came. You have never seen Alma in such a state, so helpless, it made you want to cry as well,

“I never knew that Alma..” You whispered as he tried to stop crying once more,

“Y-you probably hate me! I would- understand if- you did-“

You’ve had enough. He was pulling himself down into a dark place by talking like that. So you did the only you knew that would shut him up,

A kiss.

“Mhmm-!” He let out as you leaned your lips against his. Your hands resting on his cheeks, while his arms held him up against the bed. He was shocked of course, he held his breath and remained still the entire time. But.. he didn’t pull back, or push back for that matter. He just, let it happen. Alma’s lips were slightly chapped, yet soft in some spots, making the kiss intense for both of you. Alma thought your lips were quite the same, only a little more wet that is. The both of you kissed a couple more times before pulling back to look at each other. The two of you stunned about what just happened. Yet still, you had a mission of course, and that was to bring back the Alma you knew, “I would never hate you Alma..” Alma stared into your eyes for a moment, replaying what you just said over and over in his head like a broken record,

“Alma?” You asked, the dumbfound look on his face wasn’t reassuring, “Are you ok-“

“I love you too {Y/N}!!” And just like that your sweet, energetic and extroverted Alma was back as he lunged forward and gave you a big fat hug. You started laughing when he started to kiss your face over and over again, “Your lips are chapped!! GROSS!” You let out before he landed one on your lips again, yep, that shut you up real quick. Yet the session was short-lived when a certain long haired exorcist slammed the door open. Both you and Alma shot eyes to the person standing in the doorway, who just happened to be the one and only Kanda,