#hazel.misc

I'm just thinking back on sabo's dynamic with luffy on dressrosa, and gonna chat about it, so: surprised. a little disturbed. a little angry. those were my feelings viewing what seemed to be sabo's relatively mild response to reuniting with his baby brother- who believed him dead. this was truth for luffy- internalized, total, final and horrid. I think I also subconsciously contrasted that with sabo's experience reading about ace- his memories flooding his consciousness, his shaking hands holding the newspaper... his total paralysis, the breaking of his world. I'm super late to the interpretation party (possibly the wrong interpretation party), but now wonder whether his response was a conscious, painful choice: had he explained to luffy the visceral moment he'd regained his memory, had he allowed his love, joy and grief to roll, he'd've drowned luffy in it all (and himself), who was already experiencing his own torrential flood of feelings as he worked to reconcile the reality of sabo's death with the living reality standing before him. sabo would've traumatized him all over again and in the midst of a high-stakes competition/large battle (the only little wrench in this is that sabo was also likely motivated by his need for luffy to win in order to possess ace's devil fruit-I can't afford to consider it). So I think maybe the revolutionary's posture was to lovingly, purposefully spare his weeping, overwhelmed little brother from coming completely undone