#hazel bloom

"Hey! Remember us?"

caleb: haze? what’re you doing out here by yourself?

hazel: ..thinking

caleb: oh yeah? mind if i join you?

hazel: *shrugs* do whatever you want caleb

caleb: uh, cool.. *sighs* shitty day, huh?

hazel: it’s my birthday..

caleb: what? oh, no that’s.. that’s not what i meant haze. i uh.. i was talking about the weather. i didn’t mean to- shit

hazel: i know what you meant

caleb: oh good, good- wait, so what did you mean?

hazel: i mean it’s my birthday, and i’m supposed to be happy.. and having fun, but i’m not

caleb: ..cause of me, right? cause i insisted on being here today *sighs* i’m sorry haze, i shouldn’t have come. i didn’t wanna ruin your day i just.. really fucking wanted to see you

hazel: you know what’s messed up? i really wanted to see you too..

caleb: you did?

hazel: yeah i did.. and i’ve spent all day just.. hoping you’d eventually come over and talk to me, even if it was just to say happy birthday.. anything really, but you didn’t. it makes me feel like.. like you just showed up to say “hey look at me, i actually bothered to show up, i care” when all you really care about is your new kid. i’m old news.. *sniffles* am i even important to you at all?

caleb: hazel.. of course you are. fuck man, i didn’t come over because i was scared. fucking terrified even. i was scared that you’d just tell me to fuck off, and that you didn’t want anything to do with me. i mean i know you’ve said it to pretty much everyone, but you’ve never said to my face y’know? i think.. i think it’d kill me if i heard it straight from you. i don’t think i’d ever recover

hazel: ..i lied. every time i said to somebody that i didn’t want anything to do with you, i was lying.. because i was hurting. i was hurting really bad, and everyone else around me was forgiving you and i wanted to as well but.. i was afraid if i gave in and let you close to me.. you’d just leave me again

caleb: never. never again, haze.. i was stupid enough to leave you once, and that was the biggest mistake of my life. not getting to see you grow up.. *voice breaks* i’ll never be able to get that back, seeing my baby girl grow into the woman you are now. shit man *sad laughter* i’m a fuck up

hazel: *soft crying* dad..

caleb: c’mere *holds her* i’m so sorry haze

hazel: me too..

6 weeks until the baby

zelda: haze? are you going to come and eat your birthday breakfast? i even bought you a cupcake and put a little candle in it for you.. i know you like that

hazel: i’m not hungry

zelda: okay.. do you want to talk about it?

hazel: there’s nothing to talk about *shrugs* i’m not hungry, it’s pretty self explanatory

zelda: *sighs* okay, put the book down, hazel. what’s going on baby girl? it’s your birthday. you should be happy.. but instead you’ve been moping around all morning. talk to me, is it about the party? you don’t want one?

hazel: i do it’s just.. *groans* why does caleb have to be there?

zelda: ah, i see. he’s your dad, haze. he knows he messed up, and all he wants is to try and repair your relationship. he’s really trying..

hazel: he’s about 13 years too late, mom. where was he when i was 5? when i would cry and ask where my daddy was? and ask why he didn’t wanna see me?

zelda: haze.. please try to understand. your dad loves you very much. you and your siblings mean the absolute world to him. he was just.. heartbroken. he felt like he’d had his family torn away from him. caleb.. didn’t have the best upbringing. he grew up without his mom, and his dad was.. awful. he didn’t have a family until me, us. and i.. i j-just took that away from him. i threw him aside when things got rough instead of staying by his side *sniffles*

hazel: mom.. i’m sorry i didn’t mean to upset you. please don’t blame yourself. it’s not your fault..

zelda: not entirely, but i’m not innocent in all this.. not at all *sighs* listen, i know i can’t force you to give him a chance, and i wouldn’t ever try.. but i am asking you to, please?

hazel: ..alright, fine.. i will. for you, mom

zelda: i appreciate that, baby. but don’t do it for me. do it for yourself, hmm?

tyler: *yawns* morning! mom? are you okay?

zelda: morning sweetheart, i’m fine. just emotional that my baby girl is growing up *pinches his cheek* but at least i still have my baby boy

tyler: UGH, mom. i’m a man

tegan: hey, there you are! your mom was looking for you. what are you…? oh. hazel, are you okay?

hazel: no, i’m not okay. why did he bring her here, tiggy? it’s my birthday.. my day. i didn’t even want him here, but.. here he is, with his shiny new kid

tegan: haze.. *sighs* i’m sorry. i know this is hard for you. i never thought he’d actually show, but.. maybe this is a good thing

hazel: how could this be a good thing? all it’s done is make me miserable. watching him with her.. just reminds me that he wasn’t there for me at all, and it hurts..

tegan: but he’s here now, and that has to mean something. maybe he wants to make it right..