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Omg what a little cutie!! @haydentwinkletoes is only 6️⃣ and already a little dancing wonder!! I'm so impressed with her solo this year! I swear minis just keep getting more talented each year!😍😍😍 - - - #kidswhodance #6yearsold #littledancer #minidancer #haydencalder#genieinabottle#leaps#legholdturn #legholdturn #turns #pirouette #backsplithandstand#jete#penche#cartwheel#jazz#jazzdance#splits#flexible#flexibility

Some days I miss you so much my insides ache. Other days I'm happy that I left. I like to say that I've moved on,  But is it really moving on when I stalk your facebook every motherfucking day? Some days, I don't know whether I made the right decision, I can tell the difference between your real and fake smiles, I can see when you are and aren't happy,  And when I see you happy, It's supposed to make me happy, I want you to be happy, from the bottom of my heart, But it hurts because the last time I saw you smile like that, You were oblivious to what was coming your way. I knew what I was going to do a few days before I did it and yet I put up a brave front.  I was a cold hearted bitch and seeing you struggle because of me, That was the hardest thing I've ever done.  I can't even count the number of times I've considered taking you back. You're the only person I've ever loved,  And I will love you every day of my life, Even if that has to be from different sides of the world. You were my first love and I regret so many things.  Seeing you makes my heart drop,  It makes me remember all of those, at the time, seemingly pointless things which I remember most. Some places have me stopping and staring, Places we once sat, I can see us sitting there, I can relive that day, Sometimes I question whether that ever happens to you. Whether you think of me as much as I think of you. Because I still wear your sweater whenever I miss you, It makes me feel wanted and loved, and those are two things that I never feel anymore. I need to stop doing this,  I end up convincing myself that I was the one in the wrong, Thinking of things I could have done to avert certain situations. I just wasn't right for you, Every fucking day I have to keep telling myself that, Because I don't want to ever see the day when I realise, Realise I could have done something terribly wrong.