So, about my youtube channel...
I have a millon animatics and different fun art videos planned out a few story times too and all this stuff. Even started a script for a video I’ve been planning on for a long time (not the big ass Steven Universe video, I’m not sure if I’m even comfortable discussing the show on youtube at this point since everything that can be said has already been said by someone else I feel) but the thing is...
I have a legit crippling anxiety when it comes to making YouTube content. I have gotten better at handling it which is why I’m indeed planning on ”returning” to my channel after it being dead for so long. But I still have massive amounts of over thinking and repeatedly starting but then trashing video plans because I’m way too hung up on how people will perceive me and what kind of person they will create of me in their heads based on just a youtube personality. Also my opinion on things like what I think/like and what kind of content I wanna make changes so rapidly too that it would be hard for me to make anything consistent.
I know I can not please everyone and I don’t even want to if I could. I guess I’m just scared I might make people mad or sad over something without even meaning to. I dunno if the Tumblr discourse or youtube drama or general online life that I have followed as a silent by stander for so long, is why I have created this paranoia of ”omg what if I will be the next person who gets cancelled” without any reasonable things to justify that fear.
Anyways TLDR: I’m trying to make content so I can start making youtube stuff again but I have major performance/social anxiety.
