Im Feeling very fluffy today so here goes.And i just thought of an unsure Harold
Harry rolled off you catching his breath âS so good petâ he said pulling you into his arms
âYeaâ you respond with a loving sigh.
You lay still waiting for him to sleep so you could roll over. Truth be told you were getting tired of the lack of emotion that had now become your relationship with Harry. The sex was great but thatâs it. There was nothing else you could really said you enjoyed but the lifestyle he provided, which was useless because you were alone a lot of the time. So you decided that it was best to pull away and hope that he could find another woman who would play this role being his sub/friends with benefits.
The first was to pull away sexually and Harry had a high sex drive. There were days you would have sex three times a day, multiple days during the week.
âDinner was great Y/Nâ he said smiling at you as you cleaned
âYea thanksâ you said cleaning the rest of the dishes in his penthouse
â âM ready for dessertâ he said kissing your neck and pulling you close
You spun around ânot today Harryâ you said softly fixing his collar
âWhy?â He blurted out. He didnât like to be told no
âUh just donât feel goodâ you explained
He gave you a look before nodding You sighed in relief when he walked away.
Youâre ânot feeling wellâ turned to you having your period which helped. You hated the fact that he knew when your cycle was on and off so the day it got off he was on you like a ravaged dog and it took all of you to decline his offer. When the next week rolled around and you declined his advances he opted to let you initiate. You had your quirky ways kneeling in front of him, biting your lip while staring at his, lingerie, sleeping naked but when that didnât come in the days following he got worried.
He then started to recall all of your movements and he realized your affection had gone no more cuddling, no more neck kisses, or scalp caresses, you started to do this grabbing thing where you would grab at his arms like his grandmother would, your hugs were empty and half hearted. You were spending a lot more time at your apartment than you were with him.
But last night you had spent time with him and were gone by mid morning he had left to deal with emergency work situation. Being the CEO of his record label meant he had to drop everything at a drop of a dime. When he returned in the afternoon his heart sank when he found you gone. He checked his phone for any new messages to find none.
He wanted to surprise you with his new haircut. He had debated on it by himself for weeks and he was hoping you would be the first one to see it.
He sat on your side of the bed and  noticed a flyer halfway under the bed. He picked it up and examined it. It was a ballroom show at a studio for today  that was starting at 5pm and he wondered if thatâs where you had gone.
He quickly got dressed in all black outfit and his weird cowboy boots as you called it and headed to the studio he arrived an hour early and noticed that it was an intimate show it looked like family and friends were there.
âHi are you here for our first show?â the young girl asked him
âYea is Y/N here?â he asked
âYea! I can go get herâ the girl turned towards the back
âNo no i can sit and watchâ
âAre you sure?â she asked eager to impress
âYes just donâ tell her âm hereâ
âOh yea no problem. It will be $20â
âOh yea hereâ he said pulling out his wallet
âThanks seat anywhereâ
He looked around and saw people with flowers and gifts he darted out to get you a bouquet.
When he arrived he sat in the back corner hiding from you.
As the show went a long, he watched amazed by how you moved, jealous that your partner was holding you in ways you had denied him for the past couple of weeks. After the show you stood socializing with guests and fellow dancers you were completely oblivious of his presence. Harry made his way to you and lightly touched your lower back you spun around and your eyes lit up.
âYoure hereâ Â is all you could think to say
â âM here⊠these are for yehâ he handed you the bouquet
âThank you Harryâ you smiled looking up at him
âYeh looked amazingâ his eyes piercing into you
âThanksâ you felt shy, âhowd you find out?â
âFlyer on the floorâ he shrugged
âY/N whoâs this?â Maja asked
âThis is harry my uhâŠâ
âBoyfriendâ he answered reaching past you to shake their hands
âOh wow sheâs been keeping you a secretâ Beth an older woman  teased
âHas she now?â he gave you a smirk looking over his shoulder
You playfully rolled your eyes
âYouâre handsome!â Laura another older woman commented
He smiledâThank yehâ Â
âJust absolutely gorgeous do you have a brother?â Maja asked
âYou guys are we having dinner?â Charles asked walking up to the circle
âI can take you allâ he offered  standing by your side âGIAâsâ he suggested
âYes i love that place!â Maja stated
âOk i will wait as you changeâ
You walked away and got dressed in your long sweater and tights. Harry sat playing on his phone.
âYou cut your hairâ you mentioned as you walked up to him
âI like itâ you said finally taking it all in
âDo yeh?â Â he questioned standing up
âYou look good in anything HaroldâŠ.. Iâm not really dressed for GIAâsâ you pointed out your outfit flaws
âNonsense i told them âm on mâway ând my guests just got through with a show to disregard their dress policyâ
You smiled âwow the âHarry Stylesâ!â
He smiled and gave you an admiring gaze âyou look beautifulâ
âThank youâ you blushed and waited for the group
An hour later you all sit at GIAâs waiting for your food. Harry had purposely pulled you close to him your thighs were touching.
âSo how long have you two been together?â Laura asks
âLmost a yearâ he answered
âWhereâs the ring?âBeth asks
âSoonâ he smiled as he looked at you âdidnâ know yeh dancedâ
âReally Y/N has been dancing for yearsâ Â Beth comments
âHow come you didnt tell him Y/N?â Maja  inquires
âYea why didnâyeh tell me pet?â he asks
Your next words and actions feel like a knife through his heart.
You pulled your hand away from his grip âyou never askedâ you speak softly. He looked confused but soon resumed his stoic feature.
âReally does he need to ask?â Maja said confused
âNo he doesn'tâ you smile no one around that table knew the game you two played neither did they know you two werenât really in a relationship at least not to you anyway. âI just dont know didnt think he would be interestedâ you look at him and although his gaze is featureless you can tell in his eyes he is hurt
ââM interested in everythinâ thaâ concerns yehâ he speaks softly and youâre stunned because for once you know he isnât just saying it just to appease you or your friends. He places his hand on your lap for you to grab once more you look down at it then back at him. He isnt saying anything but he is pleading with his eyes. So you grab it and wrap it around your two small hands.
âYou two are cute i like him Y/Nâ Beth snaps both out of your thoughts
You smile and look at Harry âyea heâs cute i guessâ
He chuckles and drinks his wine.
After dinner you end up at his penthouse the ride there was deathly quiet. You didnât know if this was a cruel joke that Harry was playing because he is known for doing that for just joking around with no care of how it made you feel.
âThanksâ you said as he let you in
âYeaâ he said taking his shoes off
He walked to the kitchen and pulled out two glasses of wine and set them on the counter âso do yeh really like my hair?â
âYea!â you say walking in a little
âI cut it cuz i thought i need to look like a CEO not a teenagerâ
âYou didnât look like one beforeâ
He chuckled and pulled out the bottle of wine
âSo iâm gonna go back to my apartmentâ you speak nervously immediately dropping your gaze to your feet
He looked at you confused âwhy?â
âI just need to check on a few thingsâ
âYouâre gonna come back?â he asks circling the counter and leaning on it crossing his arms
Your head shoots up âYea!â
ââŠâŠYesâ you said unsure of your answer
He walked over to you âwhat did i do?â he asks the question he has been dreading to ask
âWhat nothing?!â Which was the truth he hadnât you just wanted something more
âThen why does it feel like youâre leaving me?â he whispered his grip on your waist was tight
âIâm not leaving i just need to check on thingsâ you look up into his eyes
âThen âm coming tooâ
âHarry iâm not leaving you by the time i get there it will be late and i will want to sleepâ you argue
âThen i will share your bed with yehâ he insists bending to put on his shoes
âHarryâ you sigh pulling him up  âyou stay here iâm gonna goâ
âDonât goâ he pleads
âIâm not leaving you, you complain about my old rickety bed anywayâ you joke trying to lighten up his mood. You hug him and you start doing it again that grabbing thing and you smile kissing his cheek
His head hangs low he knows heâs done something but he doesnât know what and you wonât let him fix it
âIâll text you when i get there ok?â
When he continues to stand there looking like a sad puppy you offer words of encouragement âIâŠIâm not leaving youâ you were going to say you promise but you didnât want to keep a promise you were unsure of at the moment.
He gave you a half smile and watched you walk away.
The next week you did not return to his penthouse you made up an excuse of being busy which you were but you were also not trying to get sucked into thinking he actually cared. You wanted something tangible and if he couldnât give you that he needed to move on and let you be. Harry on the other hand was in agony itâs not like he didnât know where you lived not like he couldnât pop up at your job but things felt different and he knew that him trying to dominate you would no longer work and he found himself asking permission just to see you. He found himself being restless at night and scrolling through your pictures together to calm down. It was as if you broke up with him.But you were making him vulnerable which he didnât like at all he hated being vulnerable.
You woke up to someone banging on your door in the middle of the night. You looked at your phone and 1:17am displayed across it. You grabbed your bat preparing for anything but when you looked through the peephole you saw Harry his head was hanging low. By the time you got to the door he had given up hope.
You opened the door quickly âHarry?â
He looked up at you his lips were trembling
âWhy are youâŠcome in!â you said pulling him in it was freezing in Chicago
When you closed the door and turned to face him he was still looking at his feet
âHavenâ felt your touch in a monthâ he starts
âWhat donât be silly i have touched youâ you stood back the cold was oozing from him making you cold
He shook his head âNot like you mean it not like i mean something to youâ
âSaid yeh werenâ leavinââ
âPleaseâ he steps towards you âi just need to feel your touchâ
You go to do that grabbing thing again
âLike you mean it Y/Nâ
âNo not like thatâŠâ He looks down âlike that it feels yeh donâ careâ it was breaking your heart
âOkâ you say looking all over him to assess the situation. You unbutton his coat and push  it off. His hands are in fists grabbing his keys and phone you literally have to pry them away from his grip.âYou didnât go home?â you ask when you notice he still has his suit on. His brows furrow he isnât concentrating on your words just your actions. He knows your actions will speak louder than your words thatâs how it always with you. You remove his suit coat and it falls to the ground.
âHarry i donâtâŠ.â you still donât know what he means\
He steps closer âpleaseâ Heâs so close you can smell his minty breath. His breathing is rapid and uneven.You nod and grab his hands bring them to your mouth and blow on them so that the air can defrost them. His grips loosen and you wrap his hands around you he doesnât realize your hand has unbuttoned his shirt because you were busy caressing his face. He gasps when he feels your warm hand on his chest you kiss it a few times before laying your head on it and hold him tight. You feel him wrap his hands around you.
âIm not going anywhereâ Â you say as his breathing calms down. âIts ok relax Harryâ you coax him into calming down. You look up at him and his eyes are fierce they are bright
He clears his throat â Youâre my life. âM all yours to love ând to holdâŠIâŠIâŠI love yehâŠplease donâ leave meâ he searches your eyes for confirmation that you arenât going anywhere
Youâre taken aback âI love you tooâ Harry you whisper back
He leans down and kisses your lips you whimper because he is so cold. He pulls away.
âItâs ok youâre just freezingâ you step away and pull him towards the bathroom because you donât know a faster way to warm him up. After you shower he cuddles into you. In the middle of the night you wake up to his phone ringing when you return to the bed he was tossing and turning he abruptly turned to look over his shoulder to see if youâre there.
âIâm hereâ you whisper wrapping your arm around him as he turns back on his side making you the big spoon you kiss his temple âI love youâ you whisper as you notice his face relax into the pillow. In the morning he wakes up and turns to face you. You were awake but he was asleep still fighting against it. He slowly opened his eyes as you played with his fingers
âHeyâ he rasped gently opening his eyes as they readjust to the light in the room
âHiâ you smiled at him
âYouâre awakeâ he frowned
âI was going to work but there was a snow storm Iâm not goingâ
He looked outside and noticed the tree outside your window was covered with snow.
âSnow stormâ he repeats
He groaned and got out of bed and walked towards the bathroom
âWhyâs it so hot?â he complained when he got back in bed
âBecause Hazza you hog the coversâ you explain
âHazza?â he raises his brow
âYou do too so i had to take defensive measurementsâ
âCan yeh turn it downâ he asks laying down
âI did i got hot tooâ you smile
He cuddles next to your neck on your collar bone âsmell amazingâ
âAre you ok?â you ask feeling him relax into you and  now that you can process things
âMeant what i said last night. Youâre my life donâ leave me pleaseâ he says holding you tight
âI wonât i promise.â You promise because this feels different for him to profess his love to you and make himself vulnerable is not something he does at all. He kisses your inner wrist as as you caress his temple. You sit up abruptly causing his head to plop on the bed âare your toes ok?â You ask yanking the covers away from him
âSeriously?â you ask pressing down on each making sure each has blood return
âStop ticklishâ he says pulling his feet away as he pulls you back
You giggle and lay back down âi just need to make sure ok? because who walks four blocks in the freezing cold to get to where they need to get after the weather man advised everyone that the wind chill was dangerous and staying in doors was betterâ
He chuckled âi missed yehâ he said wrapping his arms around you inhaling your scent
âDonât do that thing Stylesâ you tease
âWhat thing?â he asks positioning his head in a comfortable spot for him
âSooo yeh think âm cute?â he challenges
âMaybe? maybe youâre adorableâ Â you smile and kiss his temple.
The next weekend is his Christmas office party where he invited everyone and you had promised to be there but you ended up being his event planner since he made the decision to invite them to his penthouse. You were at the tailor with him while he stressed about every inch of his suit that morning. You leaned by the door frame and smiled
âTake in a little Seanâ he spoke as the tailor bent over at his feet
He didnât notice when you walked over to him as he stood.
âGreat!â he smiled liking the length
âMay I?â you ask Sean reaching for the tie
"Yes Madamâ he says stepping back
You grab it and tie into an Eldredge knot. âRelaxâ you speak he frowns and looks at you
âThe board of directors are coming I canâ this means another year being CEO or notâ
âWell you can become a board member and be more powerfulâ you wink âDo you like it?â you ask stepping behind him
His brows furrows and he looks at it fidgeting with it
âI thinkâŠâ you start to undo it "you donât need a tie itâs a party not a board meetingâ you say pulling it off
âNo tieâ you speak calmly âyou need to be relatable putting on a tie makes you seem uptightâ
He frowns before concentrating on his suit. You smile and place the tie back
In his penthouse you do everything to keep him in the bedroom as he is beginning to panic
âCalm down Harold!â you say making him sit
He glares at you âHarryâ Â
âHarryâ you smile and kiss him âits ok your staff will love you!â
â âM not a loveable personâ he grumbles
âYou are i love you and we are complete opposites!â you stick your tongue out at him
âItâs not ready yet so you canât goâŠâ you hear a plate falling and breaking
He jumped up âBloody!â
âNo Iâll do it you just get ready you know it takes you a long timeâ you push him into the bathroom. After minutes you hear his feet thumping towards the kitchen
âNope!â you say pushing him back
He giggles âcome on i need to see how it looksâ
âIt looks great! I promise! did you shower?â you ask noticing his naked body with a towel wrapped around
âYeaâ he said in an obvious tone
âGet dressed.â you order
An hour passes you let him see how his home is decorated
âWowâ he says looking around âamazingâ he says turning back to look at you
âThis is Mr.Styles this party means a lot to him so lets try to be our best right?â
âThank youâ Harry nods at them
The door bell rang indicating his guest were beginning to arrive
âI need to get ready mingleâ you said before you unbuttoned the top button on his shirt he frowned at you "be relatableâ you coaxed walking away. It took you longer than you wanted to get ready you wore a shimmery emerald green dress it complimented your tan skin and dark hair.
When you walked out his home was full with people you knew Harry wasnât going to see you so you hang around the kitchen eating all the hors d'oeuvres as the waiters walked them around. You heard the doorbell ring above the loud music and you rushed towards the door
âI got it donât worry about.â You chased away the waiter âHI WELCOME! Would you like me to take your coats?â you grabbed their coats they thanked you ââŠYea no problem!â ââŠ. Thank youâ you said taking the wine bottle
âWow Mr.Styles is living it up!â they commented walking into his home
You giggle and put the coat away as soon as you get ready to walk away the doorbell rings again âHI WELCOME! Thank you! Â Would you like me to take your coat?â Harry heard you that time and slowly made his was towards you.
âMr. Styles Beautiful homeâ
âThank youâ he said bowing towards them
âHeyâ you said smiling at him
âCome onâ he said reaching out his hand for her to grab. He pulled you in and gave you a kiss. âYeh look stunning!â
âYou look tense!â you teased rubbing his chest Â
âYeh left me with the vultures!â he joked pulling you towards his board members
âGentlemenâ he said interrupting âi want yeh to meet Y/Nâ
âHiâ you greet them âso nice to meet you! Do you need anything we have a full bar?âŠ. This is a christmas party you shouldnât be discuss stocks!â They chuckled âMingle make people like youâ she whispered before dashing off.They all laughed at her antics
âShes spunky love her already!â one of them commented Â
From across the room you spotted his mother and Gemma talking to his friends
âHi how are you?â you greeted them
âOh hi!â his mother Anne smiled at you Â
âHi you guys look amazing!â you compliment
âThank yeh!â Gemma responded Â
You smiled âcan i get you anything?â
âNo but yeh can tell me how yeh know my son? iâve seen your picture beforeâ
âYea heâs been recently showing us your pictures are you his girlfriend?â Gemma asks
âUhâŠ.â you blush and look at him he looks concerned his eyes are on you âYes i amâ
âHow long have yeh two been together?â his father asks
âA year?â you answer unsure
âA year!â Anne exclaims
âOr maybe lessâ you fib
âOh wow first girlfriend ever to attend these thingsâ Anne smiles
âYeh make him happy we can tellâ Gemma comments
âOh i dont do muchâ you blush
âThats why we like yeh!â his father raises his glass at you Â
âNow tell me where did yeh get that dress?â Anne asked pulling you in
âOh thank you! My friend is a seamstress so she made itâ Â
You chat with his family for awhile before you step away and work the room itâs clear that you were needed to give the room a calm vibe you charmed those around you which made them endear him more.
âYea he is a great guy extremely talented.â you compliment Harry
âExcuse me may i borrow her?â Harry interrupted as you were talking to a group of men who were eyeing you like hawk. They nodded backing away âCome with me pleaseâ he said guiding you with his hand behind your back
You heard a glass fall and instead of following Harry you follow the sound
âNo no no donât pick it up get another one!â you say rushing towards the distraught woman. âItâs fine i promise get another glass!â you grab a napkin and place it over the mess
She smiles at you with sad eyes and walks away. The caterers rush to you and start cleaning up the broken glass
âOh heyâ you say looking up at Harry
âThey got it pet come onâ he said tilting his head Â
âOhâ you say standing up and you grab his hand where are we going you ask as he pulls you towards his room. He goes to open the door but itâs locked he looks at you and grins
âWhat you told me to lock it!â you say as he types in the code
He lets you walk in first as he makes sure no one is paying attention to you two.
âYes Hazza whats up?â
He makes his way towards you he is nervous itâs been so long he feels like you might reject him
âWhats wrong?â you ask caressing his cheek noticing his internal turmoil
âMay i have yeh?â he asks, he pulls you in closer âreally need yeh right nowâŠâ
âYou have me" you say leaning up for a kiss
He shakes his head ânot like that petâ he says making you walk back towards the bed âyeh look beautifulâ
His devious smirks appears
You smile  âWe.can.notâ  you whisper
âWhy not?â he whispers back âI just want a tasteâ
âTheyâll be glitter all over youâ you countered while he made you sit on the bed
â âS not my fault yeh look ravishing in that dress!â he says dropping on his knees
Because of the ongoing party outside you were reluctant but you missed the intimacy you shared with Harry. So you didnât stop him when he reached up and pulled off your panties and pulled you close to him. He plants kisses from your ankle and trails up to your thigh âspread âem darlingâ he speaks softly âjust the way i like itâ you open your legs and place one behind his back as he hooks his arm around the other. He knew he had to work quickly because you two had about a 10 minute window before people noticed. He had you reaching your peak in 5 minutes your legs trembling screaming into the pillow. You held onto the pillow feeling him crawl up planting kisses
He yanks the pillow away âLet me seeâ he smirked leaning down to kiss you
You erupt in laughter against his lips
âWhat is it?â he asks nuzzling your neck
âGlitter all over you!â it takes you a while to calm down
âSilly goose!â he chuckles
âPeople are gonna tellâ you say trying to wipe it off âItâs in your hair on your face!â
âYou will! You need to go to the bathroomâ he gives you a look and walks to the bathroom as you follow him. He frowns at the image he sees thereâs way too much glitter than he expected
âSee!â you hunch over laughing âlet me try you reach out to himâ and he laughs at you
âS not funnyâ he said trying to take it off
âYou said you didnt care!â you laugh
âI care nowâ he mumbles
âYea ok let me see babeâ
You grab a washcloth and flick them away you continue to laugh âi canât they are soo many!â
He laughs at you âYouâre drunkâ
âI am itâs your fault and the damn glitter!â you giggle
âI think thatâs good. Yea?â he makes a face thatâs his âseriousâ face
âYes!â you smile cheekily
âNo i donâ like that smileâ he frowns
âNo i promiseâ you lean up âkiss?â You say pouting your lips
He plants a kiss and laughs at you âYour fun drunkâ
âHey im fun all the time!â
âYes yeh areâ he says leaning down to kiss you âlove yehâ he says looking at you
âLove you too ok we gotta go!â you say hopping off the counter âI need to go first distract peopleâ
And you did and no one really realized your absence.
You thought Harry would have gotten his fix he wouldnât be so attached but the opposite happened it was like you were his magnet and he somehow always found his way to you
âAww thank you youâre so sweetâ  Harry steps into their line of sight  âHiâ you smile as he blocks mens view of you âyou ok?â you ask him smiling brushing your fingers through his hair
He pulls you in close âMove in with meâ he states leaning his forehead on yours
âWhat?â you asked shocked smiling
Before he finishes you see a shimmer and you erupt in laughter âPppfffft!â You hunch over
âPetâ he says chuckling. You hide your face in his chest laughing. âYouâre so giddyâ
âIâm sorryâ you blow raspberries, fan your face âcontinueâ
âComeâereâ he says pulling you closer
You smile âok yesâ you look up at him
He speaks slowly âMove in with meâ
âAre you asking or demanding?â
âBoth?â He makes a face
You smile âIâll think about itâ
âWhatâs there to think about?â
âIt takes a lot to get you ready!â you fuss
âWhat?â he smiles âi can get myself readyâ
âI know but you have to promiseâ
âYou donât even know what youâre promising?â you giggle
âIâll promise yeh the worldâ he kisses your forehead
âHow long do i get to think about it?â you ask
âTill tomorrow morningâ he answers
âOkâ you shrug and start dancing
The party ends and you stand by the door saying goodbye to your guest
âThank you for coming! Here is your coatâ
Harry and his family watch you from afar
âI like herâ Anne comments
âMe tooâGemma chimes in
âSheâs good for youâ His father states
âSheâs very sweet girl can handle pressureâ Anne states
âThanks for having us it was a blastâ Gemma thanks him
He hugs them âIâll be in europe in 2 weeksâ
âLove yeh Hazzaâ Gemma says walking away
âLove yeh tooâ Â he blows kisses Â
You happily hug his family goodbye before making your way to the kitchen and hug the chef like sheâs your mom before her and her crew leave.
âHazza!â you sing taking a bite of bite cakes
âYeh like calling me that?â
He hugs you from behind âLetâs go to bed petâ
âOooo are we gonna do the dirty?â you ask dancing back
âMaybeâ he says waggling his brows.
The next morning you feel Harry spring out of bed and hear him mumble something about board meeting and you immediately go to grab his arm
âLet go pet have to runâ he says pulling his arm away
âRun where?â you fuss
âI have a board meetingâ he complains trying to get away from your grip
âItâs sundayâ you state
âItâs sundayâ he repeats
âItâs sundayâ he repeats again confused by what you mean
âYes! who has a board meeting on Sunday?â
It finally clicks âitâs sundayâ he slumps back in bed
âI gotta pee!â you say rushing out the bed
âYehând youre unpredictable bladder!â he chuckles
âHey thats not nice!â you say from the bathroom
âGlitter all over the  bloody bedâ he fussed trying to get it off Â
You laugh as you walk back in
âLook at how much cover yeh have i have nothinâ! Yeh have everything!â
âCuz you hog it so i have to burrito myself inâ you argued
âBurrito yourself in?â
âYes!â you stress getting in bed and giggling
He waited for you to snuggle in with him often tickling you
âStooopâ you complained starting a giggling fit
You felt his body relax and pull you in close
âSoooo i guess im moving in? Which is weird cuz technically i had moved in your asking me to get rid of my apartment?â
ââŠYes?â he didnt know you looked at it that way
âReally?!â Â
âYea!â
He moved and hovered over you âso i guess the next phase is making yeh my wifeâ
âI want yeh to be Mrs.Styles, my everythinââ he said before kissing you.