#hardtoforget

Why does it still hurt this much to think of you?

It is hard to breathe even this days.

Tears in my eyes never runs dry.

My heart muscles are contracting and stressing too much just to keep me from passing out.

To remember you haven’t been simple, it haven’t been easy!

It is like having a band aid repeatedly being rip off!

The saddest part of feeling this pain is that it leaves me no choice.

I feel everything without wanting it, it comes uninvited — from the last time you held me so tight, to our last kiss!

I wish I could ask you how you’ve been. But I know I can’t cause you wouldn’t want that.

I wish I have the courage to tell you how am I after you left. But I know I can’t cause you’d definitely care less.

I wish I am talking to you right now instead of reliving our past by myself. But I know I can’t cause clearly you’ve forgotten about us.

I wish you didn’t become someone I can’t recognized today. But you’ve had a change of heart and for that I know very well that I can never bring you back.

I wish you remember me the way I am remembering you day by day. But I know you won’t cause to you I am now a nobody.

I burden myself with thoughts of you, and these thoughts are causing me distress.

I try to block you out, but it becomes impossible when you unexpectedly creep into my head.

I wish to set my mind free of you. I no longer desire to serve this lengthy sentence of loneliness and heartbreak.

I spent a decade of loving and proving my love to you, and fear it will take a decade to completely detach myself from you.

I sigh with a heavy heart as I divert my attention elsewhere. It's not the love I lost I mourn for, it's the person I no longer recognise when I look in the mirror.

Love doesn't die, but your will to live does.

Up until now I've always held onto not letting you go. I held onto memories and found reasons within these keepsakes to continue fighting for you, for us. Today I want to let you go. I want to free my crowded mind, my deep thoughts and my heavy heart of you.

With what and how I will fill these void spaces, I am yet to learn but for now I am letting you go.

Letting go is hard.