#hardsituations

Seeing you today made me burn all the walls I'm currently trying to build, after they had been knocked down & burnt by you. It was so hard to mentally and physically put these walls up, so I wouldn't hurt again, it took my time, effort & brokeness to put these walls up, that protect my heart & my head. My walls weren't fully up, but it still stopped you from entering my mind, it still stopped me from thinking it about you. Yeah I was depressed, but inside I could handle it, I thought I was strong.. Until I saw you walk past my house & I know for a fact you never walk past my house to get home, you never deliberately walk past & look in never! Seeing you made my heart drop & made me burn all my walls I slaved to get up, all my tears, sadness, emotions & sleepless nights suddenly don't mean a thing since my walls are now broken. Then walking down the street to being told that you miss me.. Now that's deep, I'm screaming your name, as much as I want to see you I can't I know I can't, because I can't kiss you through a prison wall, so all i have to do is wait till my bails off. It's killing me inside beyond a point where I can slowly feel myself drowing again. My heart, stomach & chest all hurt, I was hurting before, but now the pain is getting unrealistic. It's mad how seeing you had made me feel so weak. I sit waiting for your call, because I know one day you'll break as much I am, I know you & I know you'll come back one day you always do!