#hardbeingcasual

WHILE STILL BEING IN LOVE WITH YOUR EX (or so you thought) you don’t realise your roommate is deeply in love with you! ──── part one / two

WARNINGS. . . suggestive. fluff idkkkk. lmk if i missed stuff. ignore timestamps

PAIRING. . . kim jongseob x fem reader

INCLUDES. . . eunchae (le sserafim), moka (illit), harvey (xg) huening kai (txt) and the rest of p1harmony!

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cass speaks. . . just a little something for now . see you guys soon 🫰🏻

WHILE STILL BEING IN LOVE WITH YOUR EX (or so you thought) you don’t realise your roommate is deeply in love with you! ──── part one / two

WARNINGS. . . suggestive (eventually). fluff idkkkk. lmk if i missed stuff. ignore timestamps

PAIRING. . . kim jongseob x fem reader

INCLUDES. . . eunchae (le sserafim), moka (illit), harvey (xg) huening kai (txt) and the rest of p1harmony!

LIKED THIS? CHECK OUT MY OTHER WORKS!

cass speaks. . . did anyone catch my slushy noobz reference… anyways last post before i go on a small hiatus (probably for like a week but whatever) hiiiii and bye

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cass speaks… sorry sophia and taki for doing you dirty in this… my beautiful bias wreckers i’m sorry it’s just for the plot

SUMMARY. You loathed college parties, but you didn’t mind the outcome. That was until you started wanting something more serious than just sex. You wanted him to notice the longing. You wanted him to see you without the buzz of alcohol fogging his mind— without him forgetting most of your actions the morning after, acting like nothing went on between you two.

WARNINGS. fem reader! fwb! theo. college au. mentions / illusions of sex. drinking. angst(?) eventual fluff. time skips IDK. short fic.. mdni. lmk if i missed any

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It started February 4th.

Your best friend Theo was hosting a party (which he rarely did) and as someone who hates parties, you were against it at first, telling him that you were unsure if you wanted to attend as you preferred small gatherings rather than a party. But after he begged you almost on his hands and knees— you caved in to his begging.

During the night of the party, you both had too much to drink, like you were challenging each other, which led you both to get closer, more touchier than usual. The alcohol was getting to you both, and before you both knew it, you were in his bedroom, both of your clothes abandoned on the floor as he whispered nothing but sweetness to you. The party long forgotten as it faded into background noise, being unheard due to your shared sighs of lust.

At that moment you didn’t care that you were having sex with your best friend, and you thought you’d regret it in the morning, but you didn’t. You weren’t ashamed, you didn’t feel awkward about it, it was almost as if you were wanting it to happen, and he seemed unbothered about it too. Which led to your current situation— being in love with your best friend that you constantly hooked up with while you were drunk.

He was like an addiction. The way he spoke to you softly as he laid upon you, how he treated you afterwards, caring for you before he held you delicately in his hands as you both drifted off together.

After a few nights spent together, he started to get more vulnerable. He’d tell you how much he loves you, and how much he desperately needs you. You found it almost sweet how needy he was. But he was drunk, and so were you. So it meant nothing. It never did. You’d have sex with him, then act like it's nothing— even when it wasn’t nothing. Going to classes together, and even being around each other's parents like nothing has happened, like hasn’t seen all of you.

You had found yourself feeling more for him the more you spent tangled up together. The way he held you, took care of you— you desperately wanted him to do this to you when he was sober, you wanted him to see you. There was more under the surface that he hadn’t seen yet, more that you desperately wanted him to uncover.

Before you knew it, It was now the 16th of May. Endless months of you sleeping with your best friend who you also happened to be sleeping with. Months of him telling you he loved you and you not believing him due to his drunkened state.

He happened to be throwing another party today, which only meant one thing— you’d end up together at the end of the night.

You almost decided against going, but your heart pulled you to him like an invisible string.

A few hours into the party you found yourself in the same situation you were always in, you were halfway through his bedroom door before you stopped, breaking yourself from the heated make out session.

“What are we doing?” You ask, your voice a whisper. You’d be surprised if he even heard you over the music and the party goers.

Theo chases your lips but you pull back. “What do you mean?” He watches you, his hand that was on your waist running up and down.

“I love you. I thought that was obvious?” He spoke casually, his words slurred.

You scoff, “Is it? You never tell me that when you’re sober.”

“But it’s true.”

You shake your head, pushing his hands off you and dismissing him. “If it’s so true, then tell me in the morning, Taeyang.” Then you’re out the door, your clothes rustled and your dignity at the door, leaving his party quickly so he couldn’t stop you, because one look at him, you would instantly cave.

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It was now Monday. You hadn’t seen him in days, you had even skipped your classes today.

You felt ashamed of the words you said to him at the party. You felt as if you had ruined your friendship with simple words, as if you hadn’t been sleeping together for months.

You were in your dorm, a sitcom distantly playing on your laptop, but you weren’t focused on it as you were lost in your thoughts.

A knock breaks through the noise, making you jolt up, hitting the space button on your laptop to pause your show. You weren’t expecting anyone.

You cautiously make your way to the door, opening it slowly to be greeted by Theo. You weren’t expecting him at all.

Your eyes widened, “Taeyang.” You state the obvious.

“Surprised?” He asks, pushing his way past you into your dorm. You sigh as you close the door. You were suddenly aware of how you looked, you were wearing your pyjamas.

“Do you need something?”

Theo nods, watching you, the way you stood frozen at the door, shifting uncomfortably under your gaze.

“I love you.” He confesses. You’re once again caught off guard.

You cross the room, standing face to face with him. You reach up, palming his shirt in your hands as if to stabilise yourself. “Why didn’t you say something sooner?” You ask, your eyes pooling with emotion.

“Why didn’t you?” He shoots back. Fair.

“I was afraid I'd lose you.” You admitted, feeling more vulnerable than ever.

He tucks a strand of hair behind your ear, before moving his palm to lie upon your face. “You will never lose me.” Then he kisses you sincerely for the first time, taking your breath away, like your first shared night together.

In that moment you finally felt fulfilled. There was no pit in your stomach anymore when you kissed him. No fear of hiding.

cass speaks! did anyone catch ⚾️🦅 the conan references…….. i went to the wishbone tour it was mandatory to write a fic. i literally wrote this at 6am but i wanted to post for Thee vodka cranberry day+ this isn’t proof read i’m embarrassed to even read it this is so out of my comfort zone LOL