#happydamnnewyear

i thought I’d be more together as a person by now.

i thought i would’ve figured out how to live with my chronic stomach and anxiety problems by now.

i thought I’d know how to be more honest with myself and my friends and my family by now.

i thought I’d have been able to quit drinking by now.

i thought I’d be able to lie to myself less by now.

i thought I’d never date someone who made me feel this way by now.

i thought I’d be over comparing Iowa and LA by now.

i thought I’d stop feeling weird about aging by now.

i thought I’d let go of old jealousies by now.

i thought I’d know what i want to do with my life by now.

i thought I’d stop feeling so badly in this specific way all the time by now.

i thought i would’ve believed people more when they say they like me by now.

i thought I’d be better at loving others and myself by now.

i thought things would stop feeling hurt and lost by now.

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