Anddd back to the single life.
On the bright side I can start going to the gym with my ex again without it being awkward. Its kind of odd because I hate the fact that I need to start dating a bunch of crappy people to find someone remotely interesting, but I'm also not continuing with something that isn't working any longer.
I always went through relationships with the idea that if it isn't working, end it and start over with someone different. But for some reason this time I decided 'Hey maybe it was an honest mistake, giving him a second chance is worth it'. That was the biggest mistake I've made so far and if anyone reading this wants to take something away from my mistakes: don't give people second chances when they majorly fuck up or you'll be kicking yourself for it later. Even if they feel bad about their actions or the consequences of their actions the root of what caused them to make that decision hasn't changed. That feeling you get when you've been used for what feels like convenience sake is just so shitty