Happy birthday @happilychaengs 🥳 I hope you have an amazing day doing all your favorite things
I really hope this is good since my angst isn’t the best .. the ending kinda gets shaky
Forever Never
chaeyoung x gender neutral reader
Were you guys ever meant to be?
Meeting Chaeyoung was a whirlwind, you guys met when she After putting out a few (not very successful) albums, you guys finally had a song blow up in TikTok, at least enough to land you guys in a semi-decent venue performing for $20 a ticket. It was the best show you guys had performed to date, you guys had the largest turnout and the cover songs you guys did were the best. actually approached you first. You were the guitarist for a super indie band, you guys really only performed at small venues and dive bars. You had been playing instruments for as long as you could remember, much to your parents dismay. You had known your band members since you were in diapers and decided to form a band with them in high school.
After putting out a few (not very successful) albums, you guys finally had a song blow up in TikTok, at least enough to land you guys in a semi-decent venue performing for $20 a ticket. It was the best show you guys had performed to date, you guys had the largest turnout and the cover songs you guys did were the best.
Afterwards, you guys were shocked to find people staying after, hoping to ask you guys some questions. However, what shocked you the most was that one of them asked you for your number. Which, for the first time, you actually gave, since she was literally gorgeous. Upon first glance, you already thought she deserved to be on magazine covers, not in the sketchy venue.
And after a few minutes of conversation and learning her name was Chaeyoung, and already calling her ‘Chae’ instead, you decided to invite her to drinks with you and your band. It was a classic after performance tradition. And, you were glad to have made that decision to say the least, the girl could DANCE and you guys had the time of your lives!
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Let’s just say the next morning, you wake up in unfamiliar sheets (you were in a random hotel) with a splitting headache, and text from a number in your phone saved as ‘Chae ❤️’. You smile to yourself as you read the text she sent you “good morning sunshine, we need to redo last night ASAP”.
And that’s how you and Chaeyoung’s relationship starts. Although you guys never quite put a label on it, you always felt warmer around her. And you hoped she felt the same way. After a month of partying with her, you decide to take her out on a date.
You pick her up and give her flowers. You take her to coffee and a walk around a nearby park. It was nice, domestic. A far cry from how your relationship with her had been. You guys actually fully discuss your relationship with each other, and decide that you’re dating now. And that made you so happy, you just had to pull her into a kiss.
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6 months later, you guys are still going strong. And you also have found out about Chaeyoung’s job. When you first found out you were shocked, but after Chaeyoung reassured you that it would never make her see you any different, you felt more okay with it. It still made you a little annoyed that you had to hide your identity a to protect her. But you would sacrifice anything for her.
You even surprised her with a promise ring and she offered to let you move in with her. In her mind, you were hers already and she liked having her things close by. Not that she would ever say that aloud.
At first you were hesitant, you didn’t want to have to rely so heavily on her. But the more you thought about it, the more you came around. Her place was closer to the studio where you recorded music with your band anyways.
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1 year has passed since you asked her out on that coffee date. And you truly thought everything was going great. Until you came home one day to moans coming from you and Chae’s bedroom. When you walk in, your heart breaks. Chae isn’t just with one other person, she’s with 3, of all different genders.
You immediately slam the door, in tears and just leave. Just earlier that month, Chaeyoung had convinced you to quit your band, saying that it was a waste of time. Because of that, you weren’t in contact with your friends anymore and your parents had cut ties with you when you stayed with the band after high school. All you had was a freelance music job you did online. You just went, with no where in mind. There was no where else you could call home now.
Maybe in your heart you had always known Chae was doing something. In the back of your head, you were always a little insecure about dating an idol from one of the world’s largest kpop groups. You never felt good enough, especially when she asked you to cover your face whenever going to her company. It became even more obvious when she said she wouldn’t go on public dates with you anymore, it was just too dangerous. At the time you had agreed to all of her demands, but now you can’t help but wonder if you were just her puppet all along.
Eventually you do return back to the apartment, if for no other reason than to collect your things and get some closure. But of course, you run into the girl you had literally given up everything for.
“Baby, how could you do this to us?" you cried out, your voice laced with pain and trembling with emotion.
Chaeyoung’s face hardened, her eyes filled with remorse as she struggled to find the right words. "I... I'm sorry," she stammered, tears welling up now too.
Her words fell on deaf ears as your heart shattered further. The confrontation turned messy as your anger consumed you, your emotions boiling over. “A moment of weakness?!? That's not an excuse!" you yelled, your voice filled with righteous fury. "You betrayed me, Chae, you threw away everything we had for what?!?”
The room fell silent again as tension hung thick in the air. Her eyes shifting guiltily away from you. The pain etched on your face was visible, a harshness that couldn't be concealed. The truth hung heavy in the air as the confrontation reached its boiling point. The room felt suffocating, tension crackling like electricity between you and Chaeyoung.
"So, you think you can just cheat on me and then apologize? Is that what this is?" you spat, your voice shaking with a mix of fury and hurt. “Do you really have nothing else to say?”
Chaeyoung’s eyes glanced towards yours before it quickly darted away again, unable to meet your gaze. "I didn't mean for it to get so out of hand," she mumbled, her voice barely audible.
"What does that even mean?!” you exclaimed, frustration and pain fueling your words.
“It means, I never meant to hurt you, love.” She says, trying to comfort you.
“Then why would you…” your voice shakes as tears begin to stream down your face.
“Because at the end of the day, you’re it for me. But I needed to spend sometime experimenting.” She finally says.
And at the moment, you can feel it, your heart, breaking into a million little pieces. Unrepairable, unfixabke, forever to be shattered. You weren’t enough for her. You were never going to actually be enough for her, not fully.
“Experimenting?!? But I gave up everything for you, did it really mean nothing to you!?!”
“Babe, it meant the world to me, it’s just sometimes… other people have my heart too.”
Upon hearing that, you move to pack up your things and decide that no matter what happens next, you have to get away from her. You’d rather go into debt than spend another second getting your broken and stomped on.
Your relationship with Chaeyoung ended like a whirlwind, much like the night it started.
