♥ ♦ adam and kale :)
♥: [ voicemail, 3 pm. ] adam, babe, i--i miss you so much. i’m sorry, i know you’re at work and i could have messaged you. i could have left you a bunch of messages on twitter, i could have just...not called you, but i thought about it, and i don’t know. i guess it’s not as important if i send it through twitter? i just. i just thought about us, dancing together again. maybe, if this whole prosthetic thing works out, i can take us dancing. i want to be able to twirl you around and teach you ballroom. i think you’d love it.
...i love you, adam. see you soon.♦: [ voicemail, 5 pm. long distance ] i call you too much. i know that. but i’m always thinking about you, and i--i remembered how crushed you looked when you found the pills, and i’ remember, vaguely, seeing your face streaked with tears when i woke up in the bathroom floor. i love you so much, and even though it’s been so long, i still...i still feel so guilty for putting you through that. i can’t believe that i was so selfish that i couldn’t see how much i’d been hurting you. i can’t believe you still love me, i still can’t. no matter how much you tell me you love me and never want to leave me, i don’t doubt you, but...i doubt myself. i consider everything harmful i’ve done, could do, could have done. you deserve so much better, adam. you deserve someone who can do anything for you, and i can’t do that. i try. but i can’t.i can’t wait to get home. thank you for everything you’ve done. i’m so, so sorry for the pain i’ve caused you.i bought you a teddy bear.
