#haemo

I want to be hurt so I have a reason to feel bad. Pin me down and stick a knife into my shoulder blade while you take me from behind. Make me ride you while you slice my tits up. Leave me dripping while you stab me in the cunt. You don't care what happens to me, you just want to get off. You don't care that it's my life's blood pouring out of that gash in my femoral artery, you just care that there's something warm and wet coating you while you use my thighs to get yourself off. My clit? It doesn't make a good handhold, just slice it off and stick the knife in where it was to use as a handle.

I wish I had some pins or sharp scalpels so I could make myself bleed more comfortably. Nothing I have is particularly nice, and the pain always puts me off. I want to bleed, not to hurt. Blood is beautiful. Crimson beads that taste of metal, rivulets of warm fluid. That's what I really want.