#hadtoletitout

 Does anyone else feel this way? Like you just don't ship anything at all (except for maybe yourself with a character)?

Honestly I am so annoyed seeing all these posts and hate towards the show and its creators. I thought this last episode was brilliant with raw and honest scenes between the characters.  Just because something such as rape is shown on television does not mean it is all of a sudden okay to do. There have been more people killed on this show than I can remember and last time I checked killing isn’t so great either so where were y'all these last few seasons when that was happening? And I get that you’re mad about Lexa and Lincoln because believe me I was seriously upset too and cried like a sobbing baby (especially for Lexa because of how emotional that scene was). But they are characters that are part of the greater story. Aside from the fact that the actors stated they could not continue with the show, their deaths don’t need further explanation. It’s a part of the story and if every character survived near-death experiences then what’s the point? The story would lose all depth and the battles would mean nothing is at stake because through some bullshit miracle every damn character will survive. There are tons of other characters in this show that have put in the time and effort, INCLUDING Lexa and Lincoln, as well the creators to whom it isn’t respectful or fair the bashing they have been receiving. If this show is of no interest to you any longer, stop watching. It’s as simple as that. 

I wish I could understand.. But I guess there's no hope there.. I wish you would try.. Maybe change, instead of forcing Me to do so. Or at least take my feelings into consideration, But.. Instead you think of yourself And what you want/don't want Leaving me stuck. With my stupid insecurities And my anxiety. They overwhelm me. The way you do. So, I guess I will do the changing And the moving on. Try to forget my feelings, Irrational thoughts and Insecurities.

I feel like I'm in a weird place right now. So just this summer I started having seizures. I'm currently undergoing a 72 hour EEG to try and figure out why. This whole journey has been kinda tough for me, seeing as how I can't drive myself per doctor's orders. I really miss being able to drive myself. It's funny how you take things like this for granted until they're stripped away from you. I miss being able to drive myself to work or to the store or to hang with friends. As much as I disliked my job all I want is to work again. The dr. said I can work but I can't get there because I have no ride. It's also on the other side of town so riding the bus isn't an option 😔. My BFF has been the sweetest and has really helped me get through this journey. Today, she came to my house and brought me a really sweet card that made me cry and candy. 😊 I really appreciate her so so much. I am really bothered by my other bestie tho. He never called me to ask me how am I, or came and spent the day with me. His only priority is going out which he does all the time. Today he was off, and I mentioned to him that it'd be cool if he came over and hang with me since I'm stuck at the crib getting an EEG done and we haven't hung out in awhile. All he said was "I'll see". And cut the convo short because he had to get ready to go to the bar. Then he proceeded to text me after and ask if I can get weed for him. 😒 I would think since we were such good friends he'd show a little more support. I hate that I'm bothered by this, but I'm not surprised, just hurt. I miss my friend. And if the tables were turned i'd totally be there for him.

I want you to rip my clothes off me. I want you to take a step back and adore what you see. I want you to kiss me. Deep. Deeper. I want you to fondle me breasts as your dick grows against my skin. I want to hear you moan in my ear as I kiss all over your body. I want you to grab my ass and press me hard against you. I want you to lay me down and rub your dick against my clit. I want you to feel my moisture for you. I want you to kiss me there. I want my legs to quiver wrapped around your being. I want to feel my nipples get hard with each stroke of your tongue. I want you to fuck me. Hard. Long and deep. & I don't want you to ever stop.