#h.a.m

Hope Andrea Mikaelson

“For the first time ever, right now, I can work on myself. I can learn more about me and just free to reevaluate and reflect. Maybe I’ll see where to go on from here. I thank everybody who helped me get to this point of my life and taught me a lesson to learn. Because there’s still so much more time to live. There’s more time to enjoy the world and the Wild people living in it. Until the end of my days, I choose to stunt and be free. And celebrate and live my life because I’m lucky enough to be alive today. I know, I know everybody asking the question. They want to know… oh my god! He’s gonna wild out, he’s gonna be crazy!… Everybody wanted to know what I would do if I was wrong again. I guess we’ll never know…”

Years

It was all good just a year ago What I didn’t know Was that it’d take a year or so For the fear to go No where to go Take the blunt and hit it slow No matter where the bitches go The ones I love will outgrow To the point where there isn’t more I can tell I can tell That I’m not where I’m at Where I’m supposed to be Bitches think they notice me And a year from now They won’t know it’s me Super freak, yeah they’re some super freaks But if I make it out to Long Beach I bet I’ll go on a long streak And as long as they won’t peep None of the past is gon’ see Right in front of your eyes Better catch that surprise Or would it be wise To chill with Wise And see if we can get rich with wives That’d be a good prize Yeah that’s right, yeah that’s right Or we could find something bad tonight And bed tonight We don’t necessarily have to wed tonight Cuz my whole generation let that lay dead tonight And things have changed So you need to change to get right Or when you lay in bed at night You’ll be dreaming about a better life Now why they look at me for I’m in the corner posted like Eeyore Passing on these bitches coming to Richard Seymour The rest of my life should bleep more Cuz I’m fucking it up like the G force Look at all of these B’s snore None you’ve ever seen before I just watch all of the Bees swarm One has never been this bad before She wakes up to seek more For she to snort I really need to flee the whores Before I receive a flee of whores…

Lights, Please

The end of me it will be for sure Gotta play hide and seek for sure Until this demon leaves beneath the shirt I once promised I could never leave her Now I’m honored to be the first To admit my lies Before the day I died And moved on to the other side And fly The world needs bigger heroes But don’t need a pharaoh Just a fly ninja without the Gucci apparel Watch me walk up like where did fear go Take a look in your eyes No wait! There it goes Don’t behead it Joe Just let it go… yeah let it go… Let it be cold… look… it all froze…

Post Break Up Courage

How quick a break gets to feelings And your chick will fake what real is I felt that way until I killed it Now, I just tip a hundred bill on it I learned my lesson No longer feelin’ it I could hit the field again And hear my name screamed by millions I pour down the drink then drink the drink up…

Cuz now Mr. Amaru’s in the buildin’ Swagger on a hundred thousand trillion Aye I know mine have been badder than yours So you should cross your name out for sure I erased half your name and make you say it’s your name for short I mean should I really stress them Why should my happiness come from their essence I do got my best friends To beat me up if I get stressed again So I don’t lay dead in lands On life I got a better glance Trying to be a little better man Bitter man no longer In the cold, I got my sweater man These ones I no longer gotta sweat again Cuz it all worked out for now No need to bet again I’m the ninja you never count out Nah, nah nah nah How it feel to wake up and be okay where I’m chillin’ Nah, nah nah nah No matter what I do to be a hero I’ll always be the perceived villain…

I Remember Last Night

“When I admitted that I was in a dark place in my life. Everybody, even I, always knew one thing, that I’d make it back for sure…”

My friend sent me pictures of his kids And all I could show him was a picture of my crib He asked what did I really go for I wake up the next day from the ghosts’ roars

Am I really just set trippin’ Look the way a ninja really livin’ How do I really slay this feeling Can there ever be healing Nightmares of a killer What can you do to the illest…

Everybody telling stories about their Christmas As my wishes stayed on the wish list You ever wonder what it’s like to be a misfit I guess I’m just too proud to admit this What are the real facts that they witness

Am I really just set trippin’ Look the way a ninja really livin’ How do I really slay this feeling Can there ever be healing Nightmares of a killer What can you do to the illest…

I’ve seen this I’ve seen this before I’ve seen this I’ve seen this before…

My close friend was getting married the other day But I wondered if I had enough money for the day Bad enough that I forgot the date I never made it to see their face Welcome to what happens when Art breaks…

Am I really just set trippin’ Look the way a ninja really livin’ How do I really slay this feeling Can there ever be healing These are the nightmares of a killer What can you do to the illest…

So HAM debuted in 2009 but disbanded in late 2011/early 2012. They went out with a bang though 😔🤟

Their last release was their 4th digital single "Lower Your Sight"! Tacking it back to their pop rock wannabe vibe! It's a fun song! However from the MV you could tell the budget was gone 😭 truly sad, I was rooting for them! They also released "Propose" a CF Song/theme for the drum roll please 🥁 iPhone! Yeah not sure how these nugus got that deal 👀

Sujin (my nugu queen), did redebut into another GG 👀 which maybe we'll talk about, and then debuted as a soloist in 2017, under the name 3am but alas that was that. She now has a YouTube channel where she sporadically uploads covers and is apparently a vocal coach! Hyoni is one of those AfreecaTV BJs and has apparently brought Sujin on a few times 😭 friends since 2009 we love to see it!! Miyu wanted to become an actress but that never happened so I assumed she's just living a normal life. Gahyeon is also retired however her and Sujin follow each other on Instagram and sometimes there's a brief interaction 😭 like yes HAM 4Life!!

Below 👇 I included the MVs for Lower Your Sight + Propose the CF Song which is not available on their YouTube music artist page, plus a live stage (despite giving us a good balance of live vocals and back track the audience was dead and silent 💀 y'all wake the fuck up, queens are in your presence!!)

We miss you everyday 😔🤟

HAM came back with their 2011 release, 3rd digital single, So sexy! Their yeehaw 🤠 era!!! Sadly as you can see lost a member 😔🤟 Miyu in 2010.

Despite this they killed it though! It's a simple song, with a decent budget MV! They were killing the choreo and hair flips and the splits!!

Below 👇 I included the MV + a live performance (queens of singing live! Like todays idols just aren't doing it like them 😔🤟 notice they let the back track do the work when they do the splits but as soon as they get up they take over, queen shit 💅)

Sorry to all Spotify users but Ham doesn't exist 😭 so shortly after their debut they made a comeback with the cutesy/winter-ish release in January of 2010 with Pitter-Patter aka 두근두근, however much like T.T Dance, this song isn't in their official catalog, also it's the "acoustic" version, it's not that much different than the original, when I hear acoustic version I expect just a guitar or a band arrangement but this is a lot more than that 👀

None the less still a great song! Not as epic as T.T Dance but I love it!

Below 👇 I included the MV + MCs Tiffany and Yuri of SNSD introducing a live performance!

HAM (Heart and Mind) is a 4 member girl that debuted in the golden era of kpop, 2009 with the digital single T.T Dance!! The group consisted of Miyu, Hyoni, Sujin (one of my personal nugu queens 💕 more on her later), and Gahyeon! These girls were actually lucky and technically had a Mnet show prior to their debut to help introduce the group, though I've never seen it.

Sadly nugudom GGs, especially the old ones, have it rough. I.E their music is not on Spotify period 💀 plus while they do have a YouTube music app artist page their debut song for some reason is not there 👀 but it is on this weird "compilation" album, idk it's odd.

The song is giving "We will Rock U" vibes 🤔 the MV was cute, kinda stole some sets from 4Minute Hot Issue/Muzik, but I didn't hate it!! This song gave me the iconic line "Get over your sorrow!" Which to this day I still sing to myself plus the dance is memorable!

Below 👇 I included their MV + a live stage (The mics were on BTW!! Talented queens!) And when you look at their live performance comment section you'll notice Sujin left a comment encouraging everyone to check out her YouTube channel! She has covers on there like Savage, Fiesta, Tomboy (fucking clout chaser 😭), and a 2021 cover of T.T Dance with member Hyoni!!! 💕 Glad those 2 are still besties even after all this time 😭

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