📱 : do they text back immediately, or let messages rot? / ☕ : what's their morning ritual, and what happens when it's disrupted? / 🧩 : what part of themselves do they not understand yet?
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📱 : do they text back immediately, or let messages rot?
no one is texting him!!
i think its almost to the point where if someone did text him, he'd text back immediately only because of how strange it is that someone texted him in the first place. beeya earns immediate texts back as soon as he has a chance. work related texts, depending if its something harold actually wants to engage with (your order of a giant box of grasshoppers is ready in the mailroom), get answered also immediately, but things that he doesnt find relevant just get ignored forever (your performance review is coming up and you're also being reported to HR). the only deviation is the threads where he's with dolores - he does this thing where if he gets pages or phone calls from her sometimes he will intentionally ignore them for hours or days so he can pretend like he dont care.
☕ : what's their morning ritual, and what happens when it's disrupted?
i find it hard to believe he has a morning routine. i think the loose timeline is he wakes up, he lays in bed staring at the ceiling dreading starting his day for as long as he can before he's down to the very last minute before he's going to be catastrophically late, then he's just suddenly in the shower with that mens 12 in 1 body wash and then dressed and then out the door with no food or water or coffee now even further agitated because hes going to be late for the train or whatever. and then he just does this forever. he starts and ends his day frazzled. thats why when mutt met him in the elevator he was ready to kill them both immediately.
and theres no consistency. some days he'll skip the shower. some days he'll inexplicably be up at 5 AM pacing and pacing and pacing for four hours before he has to leave.
🧩 : what part of themselves do they not understand yet?
i dont think he understands almost anything about himself. it sounds like a cop out answer but its true - i dont think he grasps why he acts the way he does, why he feels the way he does, why he has such a poor grasp on reality, why he ricochets between thoughts of hurting himself or thoughts of hurting other people who he thinks deserve it. i feel like harold coasts on such harsh burning emotions - im stressed, im angry, im upset, im paranoid, im in a lot of inexplicable anguish and i wish i died, this person is causing me a lot of inexplicable anguish and i wish they died, etc that introspection is the furthest thing from his mind at any given moment. he is very aware something is "wrong" with him but looking into it would be horrible because then he would have to do something about it, its easier to say this was "done" to him rather than he's trapped himself. he is a very "in the moment" sort of guy, which is why he's almost 40 and lives every single day in the same weird haze of misery while basically dedicating his life to an aimless eternal research project.










