#gulit

Simons punishment in Hell is so heartbreaking to me. He has to tear pages out of the book where he put Edwin and his initials and the ‘headmaster’ tells him he can stop when he finishes the whole book, but the book keeps replacing itself. And it hits so emotionally if you have ever had to hide or repress queer emotion. Simon is being punished for simply having emotion and he thinks if he can stop having that emotion (finish tearing out all the pages) all the pain will stop. Being queer isn’t something that just leaves you… it is always there and sometimes it causes you pain because others can’t accept it maybe even you yourself can’t accept it. (Ex. Simon saying Does it have to be torture? Bring the way we are?) Then our boy Edwin who has been trying to deal with the repression he’s had for so long tells him that it’s okay to be queer and if you ever make yourself believe it’s not okay you are making your own hell.

“Responsible for Ultron (list includes all people pictured):

Personally worked with Ultron: 

Reasons:

(Misplaced) Revenge, (Presumable) Hydra indoctrination 

Wanting to save the world (post telepathic mindfuck) 

....easily manipulated? (Post telepathic mindfuck) 

Backgrounds (prior to telepathic mind-fucks)

Traumatized and Brainwashed Kid:

As a child, saw parents blown up, spent days staring at missle with “Stark” written on it waiting for it to kill her and her brother; “signed up for” Hydra (probably before age 18); wanted “revenge” on Stark and Avengers; (knowledge of Stark and Avengers not really clarified, but likely influenced by Hydra indoctrination.) 

Still pretty much a “kid” by “Ultron.”

Traumatized and Mentally Ill Adult, Who Already Built AIs and Saved the World Successfully Before:  

Parental neglect; orphaned at 21 (at this point, thinks dad killed mom with his driving); “saw young Americans killed by the very weapons designed to protect them;” tortured in a cave, forced to help guys who killed those young Americans; saw mentor die; fatal disease; wormhole-induced PTSD (on top of obvious other disorders); saw lover tortured because of him, then saw her “die” when he failed to catch her; has built at least three successful A.I; saved planet at least once; shown “worst fear” right before making Ultron.

Traumatized Mentally Ill Adult, With Self-Trust Issues:  Hulk accident and condition; lost relationship with girlfriend (probably due  to this); years in isolation; guilt over destruction (and probably deaths) caused as Hulk; shown a telepathic mind-fuck that caused him to Hulk out and rampage a civilian town, right before making Ultron. 

Helped Defeat Ultron: 

Owned Up To Ultron: 

Realizes “this is all because of me” at seeing city attacked, switches sides;  guilt complex a major character trait in following movies

“Ultron, my fault;” signs Accords and donates a fuckton of money to college kids over Ultron guilt

“Only when I’ve created a murder-bot!” First to own up to Ultron, right after the fact. (Interesting fact: spent two years as the Hulk after Ultron incident. Food for thought.) 

Responsible for Vision (the guy able to lift Thor’s hammer, who killed Ultron):

Faced Legal Action for Ultron: 

Faced Legal Action for Anything Before the Sokovia Accords: 

Irony

Relationships After Ultron:

Spats “You locked me in my room!” and otherwise has no negative words for Tony Stark; was willing to stay “locked in her room” until Hawkeye convinced her otherwise; only person on the Raft not to say anything to Tony;

(looks either ashamed, or too angry to face him, or both, open to interpretation);  in “Infinity War,” wants Vision to keep his word to Tony Stark; is visibly upset at news Tony Stark went missing up in the alien spacecraft.

(Note: Wanda has directly seen, and influenced, Tony’s space-phobia, plus her aforementioned guilt complex.) 

Calls Wanda a “WMD,” otherwise has no insults for her; wants to keep her in the mansion for her own “protection;” talks like a scolding parent during airport fight (”Wanda I think you hurt Vision’s feelings” “First of all, that’s an exaggeration, second, I did that for your protection.”) Looks guilty AF when seeing Wanda in straight jacket on Raft; helps Cap break Wanda and others out of Raft prison by ignoring Ross’s call; lets Vision and Wanda have secret affair, keeps their secret for them.

Tells Wanda “I could kill you without turning a shade of green” recently after mindfuck; after returning to Earth two or three years later, has no negative words, facial expressions or hand gestures for her; hugs Tony immediately upon reuniting with him. 

"Civil War” 

Tony: Told he “murdered” a civilization woman’s son; signed Accords out of guilt; baffled by Cap’s actions; but for some reason, fails (along with the rest of his team) to ask Cap WTF is going on; blackmails/technically kidnapps underage with super-strength to help arrest Team Cap (none of whom, until this point, were the kind of person who would toss a truck at anyone), gives Spidey extra-protective new suit, tells Spidey to keep his distance and sends him home as soon as he’s hurt; sees BFF paralyzed; blasts an apologizing Sam, who wasn’t even remotely responsible; realizes Bucky was framed; admits he was wrong about that, goes to help Steve and Bucky and make peace; watches video of parents murdered with apparent killer standing right next to him, hears comrade (who is put on a pedestal by everyone, including the father being killed in the video who never told Tony he loved or liked him), admit with no visible remorse, that he knew; violent mental snap for 20 minutes (if that); next time we see him, is helping Rhodey with his legs; helps Team Cap escape raft by ignoring Ross’s call; no hint of him making any further attempts to go after Bucky, or even expressing onscreen animosity towards Bucky.  

Wanda: Saves hundreds if not millions of lives; accidentally kills a few while saving those hundreds/millions, is horrified; is fine staying in the mansion like Tony wants, until Hawkeye convinces her otherwise; is put in a straight jacket; only person on Raft not to verbally shit on Tony. 

Bruce: Spared the indignity of being in “Batman V. Superman the Avengers Edition”

Adults Who Emotionally Blackmailed Young People into illegally joining their “war,” that said young people know little to nothing about:

If Tony is horrible for dragging a “kid” into a “war,” and Wanda is also a “kid” when Tony “locks her up”.... is Wanda still a “kid” when Hakweye drags her into this “war?” If Hawkeye did exactly that, but for Team Iron Man instead of Team Cap, would it still be okay? 

After “Civil War” 

Tony: Focus on protecting world; mentors/protects Peter Parker; improves enough that Pepper takes him back; becomes engaged; obsessed with defeating Thanos; makes new protective suit for Peter Parker; doesn’t want Peter on the space-donut and is pissed when he stows away; has petulant (and hilarious) snark-to-snark combat with Dr. Strange and Peter Quill; is a jackass after saving Strange from torture, but clearly caring when Strange is time-glitching; tries to talk down Quill when Quill is in the same position Tony was in Siberia (learn of loved one’s murder with killer in front of him), with no patronizing cliches like “this won’t change what happened”; fights Thanos even when armor is almost completely gone; doesn’t want Strange to hand over the Time Stone to save him; is upset Strange handed over the Stnoe to save him; has no ill words for Quill after Quill fucked up everything; gently says “steady Quill” when Quill’s friends are disintegrating around him; holds Spidey while he disintegrates. 

Wanda: No ill words for Stark, after everything; wants Vision to keep his word to Stark; is upset when Tony is declared missing on the spaceship; saves Vision’s ass from Thanos’s minions; refuses until the last minute to kill Vision for the sake of saving the universe; along with Star Lord, is one of the only two people in the MCU willing to kill their lover, and last living loved-one, to save the universe; has to see Vision killed again, with Thanos winning the Stone; dusted. 

Bruce: Trapped in Hulk for two years; sees Asgardians killed..............why am I still bothering? None of you ever hated on Bruce Banner to begin with, because he wasn’t in “Civil Fart” and therefore not “against” your favorite character.