so like, throughout high school i had trouble being in libraries. As a Young Autisticâą, i had trouble with volume control (still do, ngl) but back then, I think, it was far worse than it is now. So I would get called out for being âtoo loudâ by the librarian and it always bugged me because i seemed to be the only one to get called out. for example, there were a few older kids that would hang out in the library and their. laughs. were. frakkin. loud. I shit you not, to me, these other kids were about as loud as I am.Â
and i just looked at the librarian like???? why arenât you saying anything????Â
i legitimately felt like i was being singled out and for some reason, no one took me seriously, not even the special ed teachers. dont get me wrong, i loved them like a family, but looking back on it now, its just like ????? arenât yaâll supposed to know about this shit??? did you guys even study autism???? do you guys not know a thing about the very kids you work with?????Â
years later, unironically, i job shadowed a librarian for a senior project and i actually enjoyed it! i was actually a teacherâs assistant for the school librarian and she and i actually got to know eachother and actually grew close. but earlier that year, i had to do a stupid essay before the whole senior project and the jobshadowing of a librarian was the only project i could possibly do. it was near my school and i dont have a supportive home, so asking my mom to pick me up and drop me off everywhere was a no go.Â
but i really couldnât say that on the essay, so i tried to tell them about my struggles with being at the library and my teacher of that class??? somehow??? thought i was writing an opinion paper??? or like??? a personal essay??? like i didnât know this had to be like, fact-based entirely???? i thought i was telling the readers why i wanted to do this not??? allistic teachers are plain weird.Â
anyways, thatâs my stories about being in public school as a #growingupautistic. anyone had similar experiences?
