#growingup101

They are your friends when you go with their flow. But when you go for what is right and just, they see you as an enemy, theyll call you sip-sip, pabida etc. So stand firm and lean on your core walls. It is ok to lose and dump bulk roten tomatoes and have a good quality one in a few numbers. #GrowingUp101 #CorporateLife #CorpoSlave

So... it started when I was a kid. I’ve always been this girl who is afraid of committing mistakes. I could still remember how I cringe everytime I wouldn’t ace an exam. I was 4 years old when I started school. My parents were in awe when they found out that I can already read not just simple words, but complex sentences as well. They even thought that I was memorizing them. I graduated kindergarten as a class valedictorian; that’s the time that they kept their hopes up for me. On a different note, there would always be someone who is better than you... that’s what pretty much happened to me. From then on, I started to live under the showdows of other people. I started hating myself everytime I fail. The worst part is, I grew up having that thought in mind. I always feel like I’m not good enough. Although some people have faith in my abilities, but I would just find myself shutting them down. I hate them for always believing in me because I think I can’t - I can’t be the person that they wanted me to be. I wanted to go my own way, but I just find myself coming back inside my shell because I don’t know where I’m heading. This could be one of the cons of being afraid to follow your own path; you end up living up to your parents’ expectations because you grew up believing that the main purpose of living is to please the people around us. I know that we need to honor them because they have sacrificed a lot, but... how will we know what we’re destined to be?

Based on my own experience/s, it's not growing up that "sucks" it's the way we do that does. Do you remember when you were just a little kid? When all you do was just play all day and do whatever that makes you happy? Well, you can still do that even when you're at this age right now. What's stopping you? People's comments and reactions? Or their judgement? Well, I believe that all of us, every single one of us has the right to do anything we want and whatever that makes us happy. You shouldn't let people change who you are or stop you. It's either you let their words break you, or make you stronger. You choose, it's your mind. Not theirs! I still remember when I was just a little kid, when all I worried about was not being able to watch my favorite Disney and Nickelodeon shows, not being able to drink my favorite milk anchor, not being able to go out and play, not being able to eat chocolates all day and many many more. And when the only thing that hurt me was when I used to ride my bike and fell and have scratches and bruises that we used to call "boo boo's". How I miss being a little kid. And I believe that I'm not the only one who misses their Childhood. But things are very different now, we're now called as "grown-ups" or "teenagers". There's much more things that can hurt us than just having boo boo's and things to worry about than worrying about us not being able to watch are favorite cartoons. We must help ourselves find the real us and somehow, be independent. :)