you're not sure where you are. you don't know when you are or even if you're really a person, but you have to be a person.
they wouldn't hurt you if you weren't a person, wouldn't throw you down and touch you wouldn't break your bones and your spirit. but this doesn't happen to people. things like this don't happen to people, so you can't be a person. just a monster.
master builder, master builder, stupid master builder dog, stupid slut, stupid stupid stupid - is that what you are? you don't want to be a master builder. if there's a thing you can be, you want to be dead. dead thngs don't hurt, right?
you slip up. you tell a guard you want to die.
they bend you over a table and fuck you one after the other, over and over.
{stupid dog, don't you get it? you are dead. you're nothing. you're nothing but our stupid whore. filthy dirty whore, filthy pathetic slut, master builder, bad cop bad cop you think you could be an officer?}
you're dead they say and they haven't lied yet.
hurt you. killed you broken you but they haven't lied.
they killed you then. you're dead then.
this is hell, you decide.
they beat you but it doesn't hurt.
it can't hurt, you're dead.
the dead don't hurt.
the pain you feel, it's a lie. this isn't real you're not real you're not a person your'e a corpse and corpses don't feel pain don't feel anythign so everything you think you feel is a lie.
a dirty filthy lie, just like you.
{freak what's wrong with the freak filthy whore doesn't even scream anymore shit you don;t think we broke it do you fuck the boss won't like that}
people aren't split in two.
there are two of you there's two people inside you and one of them is better
he's good he's good he's nice he smiles
the smile makes your day your week
if you were real you think you'd love him
if you were alive you'd want to hug him.
good cop doesn't always know what happens.
sometimes you think he wants to protect you but that's silly.
you're not real, you dont' need to be protected.
you decide good cop is real, one day. good cop is real. he deserves better than this.
good cop being real changes things.
you're still a doll, a thing - not real, but you plan now.
you talk to good cop more
you fake good cheer, you fake hope
fake life, pretend you're alive, real
they hurt you
you scream for them but you're dead you don't feel anything th epain is a lie the screams are a lie it's all a lie.
the first thing that's real is the rage.
the cube is heavy in your hand and it's slick with blood, red bright red.
you bash his brains in. you pick up his baton and you bring it down.
again.
again.
it's not for you. it's for good cop. it's for good cop and because he's good and strong and good and good everything is better fo rhim he makes you smile you have to protect him he's so good
he thinks you're alive.
thinks you're a person and it's cute but it's not true.
a man is there.
he gives you full reign. tells you to kill them. killing is something you can do. you don't have to be real to kill something.
{you're hired. i want you to kill everyone on this floor. you can do that right buddy?}
it echoes through you.
buddy buddy buddy buddy
you're not real.
but he thinks you are.
can he show you how to be real?