#grad year

Guess who's dying their hair in less then 2 hours °●°

I’m riding a new wave this year 🌊🌊

I'm sorry for shit talking garden state an hour ago because it sends me back to such a specific significant time in my life that I literally cannot stop crying just thinking about the movie and even the poorly written manic pixie dream girl character

wow I can't believe all the agonizing heartbreak I've been dealing with for the past few weeks is entirely unwarranted because he does still like me and is just not in a place where he can date right now and wow I wish he had actually told me that before I cried over him for a week straight what an idiot

I woke up at 5 today to finish something I just didn’t have the mental energy to finish before today and so I thought today would be horrible, but they caught the Golden State Killer and my MA portfolio passed with distinction and my professor loves my proposal and wants to use it as an example for the next time the class is taught at the grad level and wow it’s been a much better day than I thought

I think what’s so frustrating is that I never get any closure even when I’m doing the Most and trying so hard to make these big sweeping gestures. like to go through the emotional strain of pouring out my heart (as casually as possible so I don’t ACTUALLY scare him off but still putting everything out there) and him just being like “it’s fine” or whatever. like....it’s not an answer. i am no closer to getting a concrete answer and yet I’ve gone through the toil of laying my cards on the table and have to deal with the emotional recoil from that in addition to being in the very same stressful position of ignorance i was in before