Finding Grace [Grace x Stiles]
@babygraceowens
[Stiles]
Leaving the party he went to the castle to where Grace’s room was. “Grace, are you here? I need to talk to you about something.”
[Grace]
Grace was getting ready for bed when she heard Stiles outside of her door. Opening it she looked at him, “Hey Stiles what’s up?”
[Stiles]
“Can I come in. It’s something important?” He asks while waiting for her to let him inside if she chose to do so.
[Grace]
“Uh sure.” She said moving to the side to let Stiles inside before closing the door. She moved to sit on her bed as she watched the other, “What did you want to talk about? I hope it’s nothing bad.” She joked to try and ease the tension.
[Stiles]
“That depends on how you think of it.” He responds while walking into the room and locking the door since he knew that Liam probably wasn’t too far behind him. “I ran into my sister on the way home from our date. She had been able to convince me that I was still in love with Liam. She thought it was similar to the situation where she was stuck between Ken and Zach. Being the dumbass that I am, I asked her if she knew where he was so I could talk to him about everything. She said that TJ might know and so I was going to talk to TJ before coming here to tell you about what I was going to do. But I had no idea that Liam had been at the party with TJ. He heard what I was going to do and there was a huge fight. He stood up for TJ and disregarded what I told him. I had never heard him say that he loved me before, those words never came from his lips tonight. I am stuck between that weird phase where I am falling in love with you but yet I still have the love for him that is holding me back from being able to be with you. I was going to come and ask you if I had permission to go and talk to Liam to find out if he loved me or if he didn’t so that it wouldn’t be able to keep him in that weird place but then when Liam was there and he started accusing me of not caring. Those feelings I had for him...I got my answer. He doesn’t love me.”
“I don’t want to hurt you Grace. I really do care for you, I really am falling for you and I want to see what happens between us but I can’t do that fully until I am over him. It isn’t fair to you. You can hate me all you want, hell, I even hate myself for doing this to you. If we were to do this, I need to be over him completely. I was thinking about going to Pan...having my memories of ever loving him erased. Then and only then will I be able to love you as you want me to. I can focus on you and you alone but I want to know what you are thinking right now. I need to know what you want me to do.” Stiles couldn’t help as the tears started to fall down his cheeks, his eyes were blue as he was in distress and sad at the same time. “I care for you Grace. I care for you so much but I can’t let myself hurt you anymore. I can’t. I want to be the one person who can be everything for you but I can’t...not while I am like this.” His hands come up to cup her cheeks. “I will do whatever you want me to do. Please, just tell me what I need to do. I will do anything.”
[Grace]
Grace listened to Stiles words and let him speak, not interrupting him until he was done. She removed his hands from her cheeks and moved away from him. “I want you to leave. I don’t want to be with you Stiles. You can’t convince someone to love someone else and you can’t convince who they love. They either do or don’t. And you do...I can’t be with you knowing that. Everyday I will have to think about the fact that you love my brother. And at any moment you are hoping he loves you back. I don’t deserve that. I don’t want that. And if you cared you would have stopped me before I...I gave you a part of me Stiles and now I risked everything only for you to tell me you love my brother? I want you to leave. Because seeing you crying doesn’t make me feel anything but pure anger. So please leave. I don’t want to see you. I don’t hate you. I just don’t care anymore.”
[Stiles]
“You won’t have to if I go and I have my memories taken from me. In that moment, when we were together I did put everything I had into us and what I wanted for us. I didn’t lie to you Grace. I wanted to move on and I thought I was. He is dating my brother now so it doesn’t matter how he felt about me because he doesn’t feel that way anymore. You were right all he has done is hurt me. That is why I want to go to Pan and have him take away those feelings. He can do that. Or if you bite me...maybe you can take them away. You know I have feelings for you Grace. I know I do, I can feel them and I know that you do too.”
[Grace]
“Please Stiles, please leave. I just need time to take in everything and figure out what I want to do. Because just because your memories are gone mine won’t be and I will remember this moment. So please leave.” She said again as she moved to unlock her door and open it for the other. “Please, if you care you will give me time to decide what is best for me. Without you around.”
[Stiles]
Listening to her words, he knew it was best he leave. He had hurt her and he never wanted to do that. “I am sorry Grace...really I am. Once you come to a decision, you know where to find me.” He responds before leaving the room and going back to his place where he knew that no one would find him.
[Grace]
Grace could only nod as he walked away and closed the door behind Stiles as he left. She waited until she knew she was alone to break down into tears. She knew there was a possibility that this would happen, but now that it had it hurt so much more than she imagined. She grabbed the flowers he gave her and threw them away before getting in bed.
