#goshdarnit

No

No...

NO

ISTG

ok so. the siren call of making a list at 2am got to me. i managed to keep it down to 100 this time tho!!

Anxiety is a bish and doesn't make sense. It's anxiety. I don't choose when fear is rational or not

It's harder to read people's emotional state over the phone. No expressions or body language. Much easier for a anxious mind to run with and mentally fill in the gaps

Official Phone Calls (TM) means there's some sort of social script to follow. Anxiety mind says "what if you don't know the script" even for simple stuff

Timing is harder because you can't see other people's anticipation to speak.

Processing people's words are harder (again no visual cues, and it's already harder for neurotypicals, imagine what it's like for an auditory dyslexic)

Avoidance is literally part of anxiety I can't help it. I do Not want to make a phone call for the reasons above. I will eventually. I have to to complete whatever needs are requiring me to make a phone call. I will Avoid First though.

Stop telling me it's easy and I shouldn't have a problem with it and then tell me I talked too fast or that my nervous laugh is weird. I knowww. It doesn't help. Probably does the opposite of help.